A friend asked me how often I get performace evaluations tied to salary increases at work, and was a little shocked when I told him I had no idea. Clearly to him, this was something a person would know, and he couldn’t imagine someone not knowing this.
My reasoning for not knowing is simply that I don’t care. I just don’t care. I like my job okay, I like the people okay, my pay isn’t fantastic but I get by, and I just don’t care. It’s a job. It’s what I do to get a check to buy things with. I honestly don’t care beyond that.
I don’t care about the office politics. I don’t care who is getting promoted or hired or fired or whatnot. I don’t care about what’s going on in the Sales division. Just tell me what you want me to do today and leave me alone while I do it. I come in at 7:30 and I leave at 4:00 and I don’t plan at all on thinking about this place except in between those times. And I don’t care if I never get a promotion or a snazzy office or anything.
I am thankful that I can go home at 4:00 and be at home. I don’t carry a beeper or a cell phone and there is almost no chance anyone will call me at home with an emergency. And I don’t think I’d take a job where any of those things are possible. I never have to work weekends except if I want to, and except for this one time, I’ve never wanted to.
I know who my boss is and who my co-workers are and a few other people I interact with in my work. I have very little interest in the products this place makes except in the capacity that it affects my job. I don’t read any of the magazines that might talk about things that apply to the type of work I do because I don’t care.
I just want to do my job and get my check. That’s all. It’s a job. I’ve never had a career and I can’t imagine which one I’d have if I did have one. I have abandoned the notion of ever having one because I really don’t like working and I’m not willing to put in the effort it seems to require to have one.
Am I a freak?