I Can't Go Home Again. Literally.

So, my parents have sold our childhood home. It’s not a surprise. For as long as I remember, they’ve always said they’d move somewhere else to spend their golden years. First, they dreamt of settling down in southern France, then, perhaps more realistically because they’re not really adventurous, of buying a single-storey house (“one without all those stairs”). So, the fact isn’t a surprise. But it all happened so quickly that’s it’s leaving me a bit stunned.

They move in a few months before I was born, in the Summer of 1974. If they’d waited a bit, they’d have lived there for 43 years. It was a located in very quiet street on the edge of our hometown. Turn immediately right as you left the house, walk for a couple of minutes and you were in the countryside. Walk ten more minutes and you were in the woods. When they arrived, it was so quiet that the older kids used to play badminton on the street when the weather was fine. I remember lying in bed at night and occasionally hearing a car far away in the distance. With time, I grew so familiar with the neighbourhood that I could picture exactly where it was only by its sound (“It’s in the council estate on the top of the hill… going down the big road… stopping at the crossroads… going past the public swimming pool… turning left aaaaand now going past the house.”).

I was the first to leave to enter university. At first, I’d go back every weekend, from Friday night until Monday morning but very quickly from Saturday afternoon to Sunday evening. By the time I graduated, it was down to once every two weeks then once every three weeks when I started working. So many things to do in the big town. Still, it was a few moments of serenity before going back the daily grind. Reading a book in the living room on Sunday mornings with Tchaikovsky’s First Piano Concerto in the background.

My brother stayed home almost a decade longer but finally got his own place sometime around the turn of the millenium. He stayed in our hometown, however, until a couple of years ago when he moved to a small village dozens of miles away because he had been told that he’d get better job opportunities in that region. Unfortunately, the jobs failed to materialize, he’s on terrible terms with the locals and that’s taken a toll on his health. Since he’s never married, I’m pretty sure that my parents sold the house in a bit of rush to be closer to him.

I went back there last Sunday. I knew the house was on sale but my parents told me that it was actually sold. A dozen persons visited on the first day and they had a great offer almost immediately. Now they’ve started packing. I went upstairs one last time to what used to be my bedroom, then had one last walk in the garden where my brother and I spent so many years playing football. I had a look at the old tree stump from which I used to jump and from which we launched small fireworks once. I looked to the rows of gardens running downhill to my left, with the church spire in the distance. The forested hills, deep green, to my right.

As we were sitting in the car, I realized that I had left a bag in the dining room. I rushed back upstairs, found and grabbed it. Then, I realized that I was actually alone in the house, as my parents were already in the street to see us off. Everything was so still. I took a deep breath. The smell of home, one last time. I made a mental picture of the room then, slowly walked out. And, as I was closing the dining room door, I heard myself whisper “Goodbye, house”.

The new owner is a woman with two young boys, I think. It’s good to know that the sound of children playing will be heard again in the house. They will make their own memories of the place. But, unlike me, they lived somewhere else before. This will not be their only childhood home. I went straight from the maternity ward to my house.

Almost 43 years. That’s a good run.

As of yesterday, we have been living in this house for 45 years and I guess it will be a wrench for our kids when we move. Nonetheless those kids have been lobbying us for nearly two years to move to be near one of them. All last spring, summer and most of the fall, we said we would wait till after the election because we would not move until we were sure (ha, ha) that Trump would not be elected since all three live in the US. We are planning to stay here for the indefinite future (four years anyway). We do not qualify for medicare and I can’t see getting private insurance now, or at any rate, I can’t count on it for the future.

My folks bought their first house - my childhood home - in 1956, a few months before my brother was born. I was 2 1/2 at the time. I left home in '73, and they sold the place in '79. I look at Google Street View and I’m amazed that 7 of us lived in that tiny 1000 sq ft rowhouse with only 1 bathroom. The next place my parents bought - where my mom still lives despite it being way too much for a widow alone - is over 3000 sq ft on nearly 7 acres. I suspect they stayed in the little place to force the first 3 of us to *WANT *to leave! :smiley:

My daughter doesn’t really have a childhood home to remember. When she was 2 months old, we moved aboard our boat for year. Then we built a house and lived there for 3 years, then moved to the next place for 7 years, and 2 other places until she went to college and we bought the place we’re in now - 800 miles away! I doubt she remembers much of the first 3 or 4 homes she had. I never really thought about that till this second.

Funny you should post this.

My parents just put their house of 39 years on the market. We moved into this house on the lake when I was in third grade. While the move was somewhat traumatic for me (It was mid school year and I had to change schools), we had such a fun time living in that house. We used the lake almost daily during my childhood and up through high school. I continued to live there through college up until I got married. My younger brother moved out after he graduated high school and went into the Navy.

But we were always welcome to come out whenever. Now that both of us have our own families, we don’t go out there nearly as much but we still did family dinners and holidays there and in my mind, it was always, “Home”. In fact, through the years my parents have lived there, it went through 3 renovations, yet my old room was pretty much untouched. and every time I would be there, I would always make a short trip to my old room and reminisce.

We had Easter dinner there this past weekend and it really hit me and my brother hard that my parents are moving out. The "for sale"sign was out in the front yard and my parents were pushing their stuff that they won’t use on us.

What is really sad is that there is the real possibility that whoever buys the house could have it demolished and replaced with a larger mansion-type house (There are many lots on the lake where this has happened). I hope that doesn’t happen, though.

I can’t help but look at this a sign that my parents are now in their Golden Years. They easily could pass away within the next ten to twenty years. People are mortal. They age and eventually die. Times change and we have to deal with that reality the best we can.

I am genuinely happy for my parents that they will be able to live in a place that is easier for them, but I will really miss that house.

Yeah, let’s hope so. That’s worse than selling your house.

It’s really getting to me, more than I thought it would. It was a great house to grow up in : warm, quiet with lots of nature around and a kick-ass garden.

As time went by, especially after my brother left, it turned slowly into an “old people’s home”. Silent, the lay-out basically unchanged. My parents bought new furniture every ten years or so, more modern (looking at those old pictures is hilarious) but quite conservative, never extravagant.

As a matter of fact, my parents and I weren’t on speaking terms for years. We only started talking again after my grandmother died two years ago. As a result, I’ve only been there three or four times in the past 8 years. Add to that the suddeness of the sale… it feels weird. Especially since it’s not only my childhood home that’s now out of my life, so is my hometown in all likelihood. With my grandmother’s passing and my uncles, brother and parents leaving, I have no family there anymore and thus no reason to go back.

I wish I couldn’t. Like you, I really like our old house, and it was a great area to grow up in. My grandparents left it to my sister, and her thinking seems to be “I got a house for free! I’d be nuts to spend any money on it.” We get to shrug and watch the place go into worse and worse states of repair, and every Memorial Day we listen for our grandparents spinning in their graves.

That is really a sad way for your sister to look at it. She should be looking at it as, “I got a free house. I want to increase its value so when I do sell it, I can get even more money from it. I’m going to spend money I would normally have spent for my house payment to improve it.”

Psh. The house I grew up in isn’t even there any more. I just happened to go on Google Maps to look at old places I and my family had lived in, and the house I grew up in when I was in high school has been torn down and replaced by a bigger, two story model.

I sadly can’t even imagine growing up in the same home. By the time I was 12 we’d been in at least ten different homes, the same amount again by the time I was 18. I don’t know. To me, the idea of a family living in the same house for the entirety of the kids’ childhood is something that only happened in the 50s/60s. And now only happens if the parents are rich or reasonably well off. I’m nearly 40 and my daughter who’s 9 has already lived in 3 different homes/towns. I think it’s really telling about how the American life at least has changed that this just seems strange rather than the norm.

This happened to me. The house I grew up in was sold to a developer a year or so ago. The entire thing was torn down and a McMansion was built out to the edges of the lot, 2 stories, with an infinity pool. It’s kind of nuts for the neighborhood. Maybe quadruple the square feet. All the beautiful trees and flowers gone. The 100 year old house gone. Oh well, it hasn’t been my home in years. It just made me a little blue.

My childhood home is still there, and my older, unmarried brother lives in it. I’ll probably never see it again, as I live too far away. That’s okay with me, though. As best as I can tell with Google Street View and Google Earth, it looks like he has become a hoarder. The house I knew is probably filled with junk by now.

I empathize. My wife and I just met with a real-estate agent to put my childhood home up for sale. It stands in the center of my 60 acre parcel, where we moved it to back in 1982, to make room for a more modern home on the lakeshore, on my land parcel’s edge.

Built in the 1940’s, I lived in it full time from 1957-1964, then spent summers and vacations in that house with my grandparents, then lived in it with my wife and eldest child in 1986-1987. We then rented it out.

But after 30 years, the renter died, and we’ve decided it makes more sense to sell it than try to keep renting it out. The dam thing needs too much work, and we’re tired of being landlords. So, we’ll carve out a plot of land around it, and see what we can get for it.

But damn, going back into that house induces some strong deja vu! It housed 5 generations of my family at one time or another.

I had to sell the house I grew up in. My parents moved there shortly after I was born, and lived there until they couldn’t anymore and needed nursing care. It had been their home for 50 years.

I was glad to sell it to a single dad, who wanted a place with a yard where his two sons could play. In a bad time, it was nice to see something get new life.

I really don’t feel any nostalgia for the house itself - it was a typical '60s tract house and nothing special - but I still have friends that live there and now I don’t see them as often, and that bothers us both.

My parents moved out of my childhood home when I was in my 40s. I was born there, spent summers & holidays there after college, brought my husband & kids there–tons of awesome memories. The last time I was in town (I live on the opposite side of the country now), I drove over to look at it & decided to knock on the door. The man (an elderly doctor) was kind enough to let me in and show me all the home improvements they had made. I didn’t go upstairs, but just looking around the downstairs triggered some serious deja vu. It was really awesome and if anyone ever shows up on my doorstep to see the house they grew up in, I’d let them see it in a heartbeat, no matter how messy.

She will never sell - she refused to leave home after graduating law school, she’s in her 50s now, and will likely die there. The issue seems to be that taking care of the house was always someone else’s fiscal responsibility and she can’t accept that it’s now hers. She’ll likely leave it to our nephews when she passes, who will sell it immediately.

The ultimate example of “can’t go home again” would be Ralph Kiner, the home run champion of the 1950s and more lately the broadcaster of Mets games. Kiner was born in the mining town of Santa Rita, New Mexico. The town site is now several hundred feet in the air, above the floor of an open pit copper mine. You could only visit the exact position of the town with a hot air balloon.

My parents still live in the house in which I grew up (since age 9, anyway). I visited recently, and had occasion to go upstairs where the kids’ bedrooms were. It was a bit depressing.

I visit my parents at home from time to time (though they probably visit me more often) but I usually don’t go past the first floor. So my memories of that second floor are mostly of a place full of life, with noise and kids going here and there, doing this and that. Now, a stillness pervades the entire place. My younger siblings left possessions which are still in various drawers and closets, presumably untouched for years and years.

It was like walking through a ghost town.

I bought my childhood home from my parents about twenty years ago. I’m 53. They bought it when I was six months old.

I keep it fixed up, but I do fantasize about tearing it down and rebuilding, and when I can I will.

Its nice enough, but it has inherent problems and it is no architectural gem. The problems it has would cost large sums to rectify, but they are ones I grew up with, so I know they are not serious and I know how to cope with them efficiently.

I did a lot of remodeling of the house myself over the last few years, and it was fun to sometimes reveal wall coverings, flooring, etc., that I had not seen in almost fifty years.

My parents bought their house in about 1959. I was born in 1961. My mom sold the house in about 2000 to the church on the corner. The church arranged to move the house outside of town, so a moving company picked it up and moved it. So the house still exists, but the lot is a parking lot for the church.

My parents rented five different houses during my childhood (1938-56) in a small town. All five houses are still there, pretty much looking like they did then, when they were already old. One has had a larger kitchen added on to the back.

When my mom stilll lived there, sometimes Id go around and chat with the current residents.