I cannot keep a job.
I interviewed for a job last week. The employment agent told me I scored high with them, but they had to interview two other people before they made a decision. Yesterday morning he called and said I had it and would start “tomorrow”, meaning today. It was to be a temp-to-perm position, meaning I was needed for a month, and at the end of that time if they liked me, I would become permanent staff.
I went in this morning, and they put me to work filing. Now, I was determined not to repeat past mistakes that have gotten me dismissed. I vowed to let them know the minute I was finished with a task, and keep asking people until someone came up with something for me to do, and to ask often if I was doing the current task properly.
The second filing task they gave me seemed so easy (sorting invoices by date, and they came in clumps) that I was fooled. I did ask, the one time I could find a supervisor outside of a meeting, if I was doing it properly, but apparently they didn’t take me seriously. I thought I must be expected to go through each individual sheet, or it wouldn’t be a task they needed an extra person to do, so I did.
At 3:40 I was finished. My supervisors were in a meeting. They continued to be in a meeting until, and past, 5 pm. During this time, I repeatedly asked the other Dilberts if I could do anything for them, and stressed that I was not idle by choice. They had nothing for me, and suggested, kindly of course, that I simply leave. I responded that if I did that, I wouldn’t be allowed back. Finally, at 5, when no one had dismissed me, I got permission from the receptionist and knocked on the conference room door. One supervisor didn’t acknowledge me at all; the other was taken aback at this reminder of my existence. She asked, “How are you coming along?” I replied, “Well I’ve finished.” She (I can’t remember the exact dialogue) told me to come back tomorrow.
The agent just called and said that he knew it was unfair, but they didn’t want to give me even the chance of another day. The supervisor had complained that the filing should not have taken until 3:40. Of course, it’s my fault that they weren’t there to ask. It’s my fault that they didn’t leave me with further instructions. It’s my fault that they decided to start “training” me on a day when they would be in meetings almost non-stop.
I really can’t take this any more. I can’t take any more of these jobs where I’m supposed to be perfectly in synch with a business I know nothing about. I can’t take any more of these false hopes. I can’t even afford to get my car fixed, and when it goes, I won’t be able to go to any job. I’m just going to go back to Pittsburgh and work in my MIL’s restaurant. Or I’ll live in a box under the freeway. Or I’ll jump off the freeway.