Something spooky, disturbing, and quite unusual for me happened last night.
I was driving with this girl I have been dating in the passenger seat. She was talking and laughing and I was dividing my attention between her and the road, giving most of it to the road.
Anyway, I turned to look at her and saw her laughing and something about the sight gave me a strong overpowering feeling of dread and loss, somewhat like deja vu only much more powerful and with more than a generic ‘I’ve been here before’ feeling. It surprised me so bad I gasped and turned to look away - I’ve heard people say they got strong feelings about people and always assumed it was just the same as when I get an impression of someone or draw a conclusion about them from subconscious mental resources, I never actually experienced something like this where it feels like you are actually sensing something real, outside your normal chain of thought.
She noticed my reaction and asked me what was wrong, I told her nothing, and she says ‘You saw something, right?’ and I asked her 'Did you see it too?" and she said ‘I think I know what you saw.’ I asked her what she thought I saw and she said she wouldn’t tell me. I told her I could probably tell if she was right by telling her what I saw and watching her reaction, and she said I was probably right, but I didn’t want to tell her. She asked me what I saw, and I told her I didn’t want to say, and she told me if it made me sad I didn’t have to tell her, and so I didn’t. We didn’t talk any more about it.
Anyway, I’ve been trying to figure out what it means, if anything. The second-most obvious possibility, to me at least (the most likely being it was just a weird brain misfire that meant nothing), is that I somehow sensed I would become more attached to this woman, probably fall in love, and lose her in some way that really hurts, because that’s kinda what it felt like - the feeling was like losing someone you really love, which was weird because I’m not in love with her, she’s not mine to lose, and I have no reason to believe she’s in any kind of danger.
Well, thought I’d share this with y’all and see if you can give me any input on this weird experience.