A little background: my Mom died a little over a year ago from an extremely rare form of breast cancer. She was 61. I’m 42. Mom’s cancer was rare, as I said, but when it does occur, it almost always begins in the left breast, for some weird reason.
I discovered a lump in my left breast last night. Now… I had a baseline mammogram a while ago, and all was well. And, I know that the definition of “persistent lump” is one that continues to be palpable three to five days after the end of a menstrual period and that lumpiness and swelling and all kinds of weird anomalies can occur DURING a period… which is where I am, as it happens. So until my period is over for a few days, I am not going to call my doctor, because the reason they don’t DO breast exams during a period is that, well, all kinds of weird things can occur during a period. I know this.
Knowing this did not prevent my eyeballs from popping out of my head on stalks when I discovered a lump in my left breast. Frankly, I am freaking out. The fact that it’s probably four days 'til the end of my period and therefore seven to ten days until I can really check again means that I have approximately a week and a half in which to scare the living shit out of myself with all kinds of “what ifs.”
So if you-all could kindly talk me off the ceiling and reassure me that it probably is NOTHING, I’d appreciate it. And if you could manage to remind me of this somewhat regularly in the next ten days, I’d be very grateful.
I have to admit - I’m scared.