I’m pretty sure it’s my NVIDIA driver, TriP. I just updated it, so let’s see if that works!
Thanks for the help!
Q
That’s a pretty good bet. Let me know how it turns out.
At this point I am guessing I cross contaminated an illness with the chickens & geese I have to feed outside, and my not being around didn’t allow me to catch any signs of illness spreading.
Here, guys and ladies.
Q
Good. Everyone’s asleep?
I have my phone still set to alert me if someone messages, okay?
Thanks
Q
Here again. How’s it going, everyone?
Q
Looks like I’m not needed in this thread tonight (which is GREAT:)), so I’m gonna play a little Warcraft and then lay my sorry ass down! 
Quasi
Glad everyone’s doing okay. 2gigch1, please stay in touch, okay?
Q
Doing okay. Got some pizza tonight, have 2 days off, will hit the chores tomorrow. Tonight is quiet time.
I’m having a harder time tonight than I have in a while. Lonely. Miss my Mig even though of course I said we were not together anymore. We still talk and cry and miss each other terribly but he’s not going to be coming back. He’s been told his only chance now is asylum and that is highly unlikely. it’s been five months since we were together. I know he drank too much and acted a fool but he knew every inch of me and everything about me and he made me feel beautiful and loved me. He knew where to scratch and he knew how I liked to be kissed and he knew not to come near me when I was in a certain mood and he didn’t care if I snored and he gave the greatest, warmest hugs.
I know I should move on but I can’t. He’s never coming home and I’m probably never going to see him again but when we’re talking on the phone it’s just like he’s here with me and we’re having a good day, like the old days.
Tonight I had a neighbor come over to borrow jumper cables for his friend and we sat out and talked a while. He told me he really liked me and I freaked out. I was giggly at first when I got in the house but as I was telling my daughter I just broke down. I felt like being happy some other man likes me was cheating. I know it’s not, and I know I need to move on anyway but I guess I’m just not ready.
But dang I’m lonely.
No, you ain’t. (Lonely, that is!:)) I’m here and so are a bunch of other Dopers, and what’s a “mig”?
Your pal,
Quasi
Thank you Quasi <3
I got my New Years kiss from my sweet little girl and now I guess it’s time to go to bed. Tomorrow we spend the new year at the zoo!
oh P.S. Mig has been my significant other for the past eight years but for five months now he’s been in an ICE detention center two states away, fighting deportation to Mexico.
Well then, all is copastetic (sp?) and you’re in bed by now?
Plus, you got a kiss from your little one?
And finally, ya got me and a bunch of other Dopers who care about’cha?
Tell me again what the problem is???
Love ya’ Kiddo!
Your ol’ uncle Quasi
Chiming in to tell Rushgeekgirl my usual thing about how it will work out.
It will work out.
I don’t put as much into holidays as most do, and New Year’s Day could be called Hang The New Calender Day for all I care. It’s just another day, not a special moment where you are supposed to size up your life and decide if it’s good or bad.
Besides that’s Santa’s job. Or Jesus. Shit I forget.
Anyway, the real thing I like to remind people is this: Its a huge world out there. Many other people have gone through exactly what you are going through. Some of them have figured out how to navigate it successfully. Your job is to find out how they did it, and do that too.
It’s a reminder that you are not alone, others have been through what you are going through and turned out fine. You can too. You have it in you and no-one can say otherwise.
If you want to chat more I can go PM if you want, I’m a good listener. I have no other motives; upthread you can see I am in a changing situation myself and I couldn’t be happier. All I am out to do now is give a little boost to some others now.
Good luck!
How very awesome is that?^
Q
Thanks y’all.
I’m feeling a lot better today. I’ve been doing better. I was even handling Christmas, at least with a blah instead of a bah humbug.
It was just that guy hitting on me, I think it really threw me off. Not him, but my giggly schoolgirl reaction to some new boy liking me and oooh the possibilities…and then realizing I’ve loved the same man for over eight years despite all our problems, someone who knows me and I know and we’re so comfortable with each other and now I’m going to have to go through all that anxiety with someone new or just learn to be alone. Neither sounds appealing at all, but I’m really missing that comfort. I do not get close to new people easy.
But things are changing and they can’t be stopped so I will just have to learn to roll with it. I do have some good friends and my little family here helps a lot. We had the best time at the zoo today! One more vacation day then we’re all back to school and work. My oldest and I both start school on the 12th so I won’t have time to think. I’ll be okay. Things are getting better.
Heeeheeee! She said “y’all”, y’all!
So glad you had a great time at the zoo, and what a cool thing to do!
Wanna thank my buddy TriP (TriPolar)for helping me out in the thread. I’m afraid I can’t handle all-nighters as well as I used to, kiddos, so I’m glad he was here. Great guy, by the way. We’ve talked on the phone when he was kind enough to help me out remotely with a computer problem, and I’d sure like to meet him in real life one day.
I’d like to meet any of you in RL one day and if you ever have more than a 1 hour layover in Hot’Lanta, let me know and D and I will come and have a beer or coffee with you - on us! We only live about an hour or so from the airport!
Your pal
Quasi