Pull up a chair for a pity party, starring your’s truly.
Let me preface this rant by saying that I consider myself a healthy person, no underlying diseases of any sort, perfect pulse, blood pressure (little heavy but what the hell)I’m pretty strong too if maybe not as flexible as I was when I was 20.
I’m an RN, up to date on all tests, shots, had an extensicw physical in May.I don’t smoke, rarely drink and no illicit drugs. Up until these past few weeks I took no medications at all, worked 13 hour days, hiked, gardened, swam and generally did anything I wished to do.
3 weeks ago I came down with a bronchitis and asthma episode that is just not responding to treatment. I’ve been in the hospital, had to come home with a hand held nebulizer machine and I literally have a bucket of medications to take. breathing treatment, massive oral steroids, inhaled steroids, squirted up the nose steroids, bronchodilators, antifungal pills and antifungal liquids to be swished in my mouth, also allergy pills, and singulair–a fairly new med that supposed to cut down the enzyme in your lungs that react with the mast cells causing the inflammation.
I’ve been by the best pulmonologist in the area–who I have worked professionally with for the last 15 years also so I know just how good she is.
The thing is no one can find out what is causing me to be so short of breath. If I sit perfectly still I’m fine, but If I stand or speak or walk across the room I cough and wheeze and my peak-flow drops to 225-250–my usual best if 425-450 (those of you with asthma can appreciate the seriousness of those numbers) The best the doctors can come up with is that I have some acute form of ideopathetic Reactive Airway Disease, and I may be OK in a few weeks or a month or I may not. Until then I’m off work, crying from all the steroids and feeling pretty damn sorry for myself at the moment.
I apologize for being the party pooper, I’m just desparate for some comforting words and some huge shoulders to cry on. I know there is nothing you can really offer except well wishes and support but that is only exactly what I need. I believe in the power of prayer if any of you are so inclined. I do not wish to pray for a miracle cure, just for understanding.
I’ll quit now,
Cindi