I moved to a new city and got a new job that I started this week and now my anxiety disorder has kicked in. I barely got through work yesterday with some leftover lorazepam I had. Yesterday I called intake and they said they’d get back to me but they didn’t. After work I went to a walk-in clinic and they said they couldn’t help me and to go to the emergency room. I went there and all they could tell me was that they’d have an psych nurse call me in the morning, but no one’s called yet. I tried going to work today but as soon as I got there I just about burst into tears. I had to tell my boss I was going home.
I’m so scared, I can’t afford to lose this job. I just want a psychiatrist to see me, I’ve had breakdowns like this before and they helped me. But this damn health system is working against me, they can’t get anyone to see me. At this point, if the psych nurse won’t call me by lunch, my choices are to call my old psychiatrist and hope he can fit me in today and I’ll drive 3.5 hours down there, or try and admit myself to the psych ward, which is a whole 'nother can of worms.
I’m scared because there’s no one I can talk to, everyone I know is working right now.