Ok before everyone dogpiles me about the OP, let me clarify: I’m a student teacher. And I teach kids how to play the piano.
Last week, the master teacher told me that I would be entrusted to judge the Level 1 MTAC competition for my own students. The ‘competition’ is really a battery of musical ‘tests’, testing the pupil’s knowlege of music theory, ear training, dexterity, and memory skills. They are required to play a couple of solo pieces by memory, and also play a series of scales and chords. If they pass, they get an award, and if they participate in MTAC for X number of years, it helps them get into music conservatories/functions as a musical credential.
I was told to judge my students’ portion of the scales and chords section. No problem, I thought. After all, I’m in the MTAC program myself (I got the piano teaching gig by knowing the right people, but I know that I won’t always be able to teach piano by reputation alone, so I figured it would be useful if I decided to teach piano elsewhere/on my own. ). Now it is easy enough for me to know when a child has made a mistake- do enough scales and you can practically hear yourself playing them when you are dozing off to sleep. But judging them?
This is where it got difficult. Not in a “This test is difficult” kind of way, but more of a “I have to say something that will make you sad” kind of way I guess Some of my students have been with me the entire year I’ve worked as a teacher. Two of the students are also members at the tutoring center I work at; they see me ALL WEEK when you put both jobs together. I was concerned that I might go too easy on the students- maybe overlook a minor mistake, maybe just make sure they got the fingering right and finished before the 4 minute time limit ran out. So I decided that if they messed up to the point of having to repeat part of a scale, they didn’t pass. The longtime student who I see all week at both jobs really struggled, and I was pained to break it to him that he needs to spend more time on it, and to work on it this week so we can try again next week.
The look on his face nearly killed me. He looked incredibly disappointed. Mind you, he’s not one of those perfectionist kids that goes into hysterics over one ‘B+’, he’s just a quiet, shy boy who smiles a lot and talks to few people beyond his sister (who is another student of mine) and me. I’ve been really positive and encouraging with him regarding helping him practice his scales, and I kind of built him up. But at the same time, I know I can’t pass him merely because I feel guilty about letting him down.
I am still at a point in teaching piano where I worry a bit about how much of my inexperience holds my students back. Quite honestly the job is a learning experience, and the only way to get better is to keep doing it as long as I can, in addition to taking lessons myself and staying in practice. But I was a little embarassed to tell my teacher that 8 out of my 9 students didn’t pass the scales portion this week.