So I’ll put in my plan of action here, and if you don’t want to read my personal reasons for my dillema, then just skip it:
Okay, first the minimum background. I like living in Europe, for a variety of reasons (see below) I live here now and want to continue to do so. But my current BA isn’t one that is in demand almost anywhere I can imagine, so I need to go back to school for some length of time. I don’t feel particularly good about it, but the result would be nice:
Get a TESOL certificate, and teach English in Belgium for a year. Then do my new degree in Belgium in Dutch. I don’t speak dutch, but I know German, and my mother tongue is English. I also understand a great degree of Danish. I can already read dutch websites. My degree would be an engineering-type degree, and I’ve already picked it out. Using this particular uni, I would also be able to get a loan from home to complete the studies there without working. The good thing about all of this is that Belgium offers citizenships after only 3 years of residency. Also I’m 25. Upon completion I’d have another language under my belt, and a new degree and another passport. The US and Belgium appear to accept dual-nationalities, so I don’t think I’d have to give anything up in that respect.
Some rational thought behind all of this. I have pretty much decided that I need to get an IT-related degree. I’m a computer dork, and computer-related stuff comes easy to me. I have no idea why I never did it before. I enjoy the geekery surrounding computers and I really love understanding new technology. Plus the idea of playing with some serious toys sounds good too! Being a student is a good way to guarantee that I’ll be able to stay legally for the required time.
The big problem here is that I’ll be wasting a year learning the language. But maybe it won’t be a total loss? Maybe I’ll meet the love of my life during the teaching English phase of things.
The other option is to return to America and get any kind of job and try to work my way up through the ranks and make a reputation for myself. I kind of miss America, it’s just that every time I go back, I realize that I belong over here, it seems.
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Now for the details. I’ve been loads of places in America, and I really have no ill will towards the place, but it’s just been a rational decision that I’d be happier here. The only way I can envision myself being happier in America is if I become successful at something. I’ve got the mind of an entrepreneuer, and I’d love to take the chance at doing something that really impacted other people. If I just went straight home, then I’d have a much greater chance at doing that. Or to put it another way, I’d have much more motivation to do so.
I lived in New York for a while. I attempted to get a good job with my BA in International Studies there. My language skills were apparently of no use to anyone. I ended up leaving and coming here. I tried over here, (Denmark) to get a job, but I was stopped by work-permit laws. My general desire has always been to get a job here (ideally suited to some kind of career development) and just stick around until I’ve been in one place long enough. Had I gotten one in Denmark, I’d have been around here for 7 years. If I don’t like belgium, I can leave after three. Then I’d have the ability to go to either place.
I like Europe for a lot of reasons though. Life is pretty good here. 4 weeks vacation is the norm. In America I’d end up using all my days throughout the year, most likely. I also like the education system here with regards to kids. A lot of kids here end up being pretty well-rounded, in my opinion. The places where I’d like to live in America seem to be really bad in this area. I wouldn’t want to raise kids in New York either as I don’t like the idolization of money in the town. I don’t like the idea that we are the number one terrorist target. Living in any big city in America seems that way to me. Especially New York. I don’t think there’s much that can be done to prevent it, honestly.
The goal of getting EU citizenship in itself is kind of sad to me. It means dedicating some very important years of my life to basically repeating a part I’m not keen to repeat. I don’t want to go back to college, but I feel that if I don’t I will have left some very good opportunities behind.
I’ve had other ideas too. Go back to America, and try to work my way up. After a few years (let’s say three) then I could go back to Europe and get a job with my experience. But then it seems it could not pan out.
I’ve also though of trying to get into finance so I could make a lot of money. Then I could go and do a lot of things, but the atmosphere doesn’t really suit me.
I also don’t want to tell my parents of the plan to get EU citizenship. My mom wouldn’t be happy, because she always wants me an hour and a half from home at the most. I love my family though, but I don’t want to go back home to MS in any way, shape or form.
Possible cities I might like to live in, in America, would be New York, San Francisco, or maybe Boston. I can imagine that New York would be cool, but then I don’t see myself having a lot of time for myself. I can easily see that in Europe with regards to work-day policies and such.
But then then on the other hand I’ve always been a dreamer. I feel that if I made this move to belgium, then I’d be killing a part inside of me that wanted to be something in this life. I’m not particularly convinced that there’s an afterlife, so I’d like to do something with my life that I can look back on with pride. I see myself getting possibly complacent in the EU. However I also don’t feel myself changing either.
The other possibility would be Spain. I like Spanish people alot, but I also don’t like their idea of family. Families in Spain are not my thing, really.
But mainly, I have a huge desire to get my life going. I want to get a real job and a real life. I just turned 25. I guess that’s not too old, but certainly time to get started. If I went to study some more then I’d simply be putting that off further. That extra year it takes to learn Dutch seems like a deal-breaker.
However, if I were to do the same in America it would take three years to study (5.7 semesters at 17 hours a semester) That’s quite a heavy load for three straight years, plus scheduling conflicts could arrise. It would cost 54,000 dollars in tuition alone. I am debt free, but still. That’s a lot of money. Plus I’d be around a lot of 18-year-olds. In Europe it would be much cheaper, and if I wanted to work there, it would be a better option anyway. These degrees are three years in Europe too, as they don’t involve any other sort of Language or other non-science electives.
So my possible choices seem like this:
Go back home and go to one of my cities of choice. Try to start a career with my current education level. Three years down the road where can I be? I can be stuck in a rut as I am now. Or I can possibly be successful. But I’m not sure that is what I want. I’d really only be happy, I think, if I were doing something that truly interested me. And it’s pretty damn hard to bank on success. I don’t exactly have a lot of resources to pull anything off.
Go back home and study IT. Do it for three years and end up deeply in debt. Work for a few years and if I feel like coming back, I can…hopefully.
Go to Belgium and work for a year whilst studying Dutch, and then start in IT. Pay for it with a loan as well. Finish in three years with a new passport and rights to work anywhere in the EU. I’m so sick of trying to find jobs here without the explicit right to work. I won’t do it anymore. That’s one of the only reasons why I pine to work in the US because I won’t have these stupid problems. If I feel like going back to the US, I will simply do so. If only I had made this decision two years ago before I came here…I’d have had no problem then, and I’d also be much further along. I definitely would have done this then. Now I feel it is a bit too late…
On the other hand I could go there and study something in English that isn’t IT related (possibly an MBA or something) and end up with a passport and a higher-level degree. The only reason I’m not for that is that it’s really still avoiding my chances of getting into something that I’m naturally inclined to do. I had a job here in DK essentially as an entry-level IT guy, and it didn’t work out because of the work-visa situation. I’m so sick of this…
So what do you guys think of this plan? I’m not certain that I’ll do it, but if I don’t I feel that I’ll certainly regret it. I really think I need to do it. I definitely have to get in IT. I suppose I’m avoiding the pain of admitting that my previous education seems to be worthless. That combined with the time required seems to be the main problem. The new degree has the added benefit of great job opportunities!