I think that now I finally can understand that “peacefulness” my elderly (IANAD) my elderly patients feel, when I see them in our ER and they are smiling despite their pain.
They’re ready to go, aren’t they?
They are so tired that for them to never have to draw another breath would be a relief.
I think I understand it all now.
We’re just wore right the fuck out.
It’s the silly hat, isn’t it? It looks like hell to sleep in. Hang in there, Quasi. Only a couple more days and you’ll get to take it off. I’m not ready for you to shuffle off this mortal coil quite yet.
You don’t have my permission yet either. Take a little nap my friend, then come back and share in what’s going on here.
Peace.
I have been feeling this lately too. I have told several friends that my soul is just tired.
I understand the feeling completely.
Yeah, guys, it’s the hat.:)
Might as well be the hat, right?
Thanks for being here for me.
And I’m not really ready to check out, lieu, just gaining an understanding of what that’s all about. 
Q
Well now this just means you’ve got to hang around, because having that empathy makes you an even better care-giver than you already were. What a blessing you must be to those lucky patients.
I’m just wore out
“Wore out,” huh? I can believe it - in your situation all of us would feel that way.
When I was a teenager and didn’t want to get up in the morning, my dad used to come in and grab my toes and shake them until I got going. I hated it, but it worked. And now that I think back on it, he was trying to do something that was effective, but not unkind.
::Grabs Quasi’s toes and gives them a ferocious shake.::
Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
C’mon, Quasi. Work it up. You got places to be and a future to experience.
Good days, bad days, good days, bad days…
Work = good days
Home = bad days
You’d think someone who’s on 2 kinds of anti-depressants wouldn’t have such ups and downs wouldn’t you? Add to that the 2 kinds of Alzheimer drugs, (Namenda and Exelon patch) and I ought to be as happy as a pig in shit.
Yep, definitely gotta pull myself outta this.
I think I could do with some getting laid, y’all! 
Thanks for hangin’ with me. It means a lot that you’re there.
Bill
Good times, bad times…
Yeah, as someone with depression issues, I understand exactly what you mean by home times being a problem.