Hey, Zoe.
Don’t worry. Things, I think, are getting better. When I first came to the boards, I wouldn’t even have been able to post that.
You’re right, living does have repercussions. And yes, I’m missing out on most of life by trying to evade them. That’s why I’m working on it- but living, feeling, and enjoying are the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I mean, how do they work?
That aside, I still reject drinking for at least two important (to me) reasons: the Passport Postulate, and the Utilitarian Appraisal.
The first analogises an element of the ‘self’, in this case, the body, to an old-fashioned passport document held by a traveler in a foreign land. Lose it, you’re screwed. Your trip may very soon end in an unpleasant manner. Even if it’s only damaged, there will be stations that won’t let you pass - things you can’t do, or do as well as before. So you protect your passport, since it’s the critical pin in the whole project of this trip you’re on.
One could make a similar analogy using ‘mind’ in place of body.
Drugs put certain body systems at risk: alcohol may be bad for a number of organs, including the liver; smoke is bad for the lungs; etc. Taking the drugs to do something not vital to the mission is like dangling your passport (or parts of it) out in the wind as you ride a train, just to see it flutter in the breeze.
The second is more bland. It lists the things that might go wrong with one drug or another:
- Temporary physical or mental impairment
- Permanent physical or mental impairment
- Doing something while you’re out of your tree that you’ll regret (conceive a child, hurt someone, etc)
- Addiction
- Revealing things about yourself that are assigned to the ‘Secrets’ folder in your brain.
- Looking like a fool, if that’s important
- Feelng crummy the morning after
- Puking on the couch.
And also lists the good things about them:
- It makes you feel funny
- It might be fun
- You get to be part of the crowd.
And then does a cost-benefit analysis.
For me, the benefits do not outweigh the risks. Plus, there’s the idea that if food is fuel for your body, then Big Macs are cheap gasoline with high moisture content, and alcohol and drugs are like putting sand in your gas tank. But the stuff I said in my first post is the biggest reason.