So I have a yellow face. Born and raised in the USA, however, English is the only language I can really speak fluently, the only language I’ve ever spoken at home. Yet for the third time here in China, I’ve been denied an English teaching position because I happen to look Chinese.
I was recommended as a teacher by a friend, as she knew that my previous employer was very happy with me. In addition, I had almost 2 years experience, a college degree, and a TEFL certificate. But when I met Jill, the (Chinese) person in charge of hiring, she looked shell-shocked, and a low moan escaped her lips. She stared at my face like I had leprosy, but after about 10 seconds regained her composure and we made small talk for a while before telling me that she’d be happy to give me classes when they opened up. All the while she was examining my face like a detective.
Of course, my friend later told me that Jill was upset with her for not telling her that I “looked like Chinese”, and even asked her “why does he look so Chinese?” My friend tried to explain that America is an immigrant country, and that we have pure native English-speaking Americans of all colors. Jill apparently nodded that “Sure, whatever, anything’s better than a confrontation” nod.
In the end, they gave classes to a Slovenian with decent English but a fairly noticeable accent, no teaching certificate or experience, and no college degree. But hey, he had blonde hair. C’mon.
Many people ask me why, if I’m really an American (pshaw, ya right), I don’t have blonde hair or blue eyes. How can I have black hair and black eyes? How can this be? So, many people don’t believe I’m American (though they may nod to avoid confrontation). Sometimes, if I want to avoid hassle, I tell folks I’m Korean, or from Kyrgystan.
And OK, I can forgive some people for their ignorance, but someone in charge of hiring at a language school? Someone who has experience with dealing with foreigners? Someone who majored in English at university, and who’s watched quite a few foreign films?
Jill understandably also has the pressure of dealing with the students, who she probably thinks won’t accept a yellow teacher. But to cave in to their potential prejudice right off the bat without even giving it a try? It’s doubly stupid since I’ve taught at several places and I’ve had almost no complaints about my race, and those that I have had disappeared pretty quickly (one of the complainers even becoming one of my best students). It’s triply stupid since they replaced me with a random white guy off the street with no teaching creds.
And so, for the third time in 2 years, I’ve actually lost out on a job due to my race. The last time, I actually lost out to an Israeli guy I couldn’t even understand, his accent was so whack. Funny, when I’ve had several people tell me that there is no racism in China, because “there are no black people”. Don’t even get me started on attitudes towards brothers, who I’ve heard described as a group “ugly, dirty, poor, violent, and stupid”. I’ve been with Chinese girls at a bus stop, seeing a black guy, would slowly inch away from him. I’ve talked with someone who, looking for a language partner, said she didn’t want the black one that she met thru an ad once, because he was not ‘appropriate’. Etc.
But hey, I have a decent job; the gig I tried out for was a bit sweeter in terms of class sizes and student’s language level, but I’ll manage.
But these fucked-up racial hang-ups that far too many Chinese have… nigga, please. Dey gotz ta go.