This is gonna be very vague. The recurring dream is only a nightmare because I can never remember what the heck the dream is about! How can it be recurring, you might ask? Well, it is, although I can’t be too explicit about it, since it involves stuff that has become familiar over several decades of having the dream, but is not familiar in the sense of being objects, events, or people I can describe.
Something is going on, something mildly enjoyable, or soothing. Something is impending, which will change it, but not stop it. (Vague enough here?) Someone is whispering very loudly, or perhaps talking very close to my ears, in a normal tone of voice. What they are saying is very significant, although I can never remember what it is, who they are, or why they sound so odd. I am not sure if it is one, or more people, or if they are talking to me, or to each other. I do get the impression that I understand what is said, at the time, although I have no clue what it was, once I awaken.
Anyway, I never am able to remember any details, and the overwhelming familiarity of the dream, while still dreaming, serves only to make me know when I awaken that I have had that dream again. Tried writing down what I recalled immediately. Don’t remember a darned thing! The description here is the result of forty years of recollections. (Well, less, really, as I haven’t had the dream in quite a few years, although I still vividly recall the frustration it brings me.)
It was a long time (while I was a child) before the dream became a nightmare. It isn’t all that bad, even still, but the elusiveness, and concurrent familiarity is annoying. The times in my life when I did have emotional traumas are not marked by frequent iterations of the dream, nor have peaceful times made it less frequent. I had the dream a few times a year, pretty much randomly, from about age 8, until perhaps ten years ago, or so. I would love to remember just what the heck it was about, but aside from that, I don’t want to know enough to try to elicit the dream for purposes of examination.
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