Thank you, @susan.
Continuing…
Yes, if I were to apologize now it would be way waaaay overdue. But as my dad used to say, sometimes it’s “Better late than later.”
I’ve forgiven myself long ago. We act and we make the best decisions based on the information we have at that time. Hindsight may give more clearer vision on a prior event, but that’s the nature of life. We live, and hopefully we learn and apply those lessons in future opportunities. I don’t beat myself up. I look to learn, and then I pay it forward.
It’s that song that pops up every now and then that reminds me of her. Sister golden hair surprise is the song, from around 1975. I like the song, it’s my kind of music, but also she is a sister golden hair surprise to me and the song takes me back to those good times. She had beautiful long, flowing, blonde hair. Like the Southern California stereotype — and college was down south, in Santa Barbara, at UCSB. Or UC of surf and beach. Or of sexy blondes. It was a good time. And today she still has her long, flowing, blonde hair, according to her FB pictures. The years have been kind to her.
I don’t speak wistfully here. It is, instead, reminiscing on some of the good people who have blessed my life. And she was one of them.
I am a blessed man and I live a blessed life. As I type this my wife and I are enjoying a weekend in Lake Tahoe together. The weather is good and we love the fresh mountain air up here. We arrived last night and have enjoyed a good day today. The trails and scenery here really hit us in the right ways. We remain very much in love. Our son and his girlfriend arrive soon and we’ll spend tomorrow together. Gotta love AirBNB. Except that Tahoe is crazy expensive so we’re out near Truckee, a quick 30 minute drive away and much more affordable. 3 nights in Tahoe and then we’ll leave early Monday morning and hit the road at 0500 to be back in the SFBA CA to start the daily grind at work. In some ways I feel as though each day with my wife is a honeymoon. And it’s been 18 years of days like that.
So, back to the thread topic, and yes I’m a romantic at heart. If, IF I were to apologize to sister golden hair surprise, it would have to include the fact that I’m so much in love with my wife and have no ulterior motives than to clear the air, or at least try to, all these years later.