By way of background, I suffer from fairly severe depression and moderate social anxiety. I’m under the care of my GP, and am taking 225mg Venlafaxine. I have attended counselling in the past, which I found worthless (except for a feeling of relief that each session was over), and have done some of the exercises on the “Mind Gym” website, which I found ridiculous (it reminded me a lot of the “Fear or Love” lesson in Donnie Darko).
I had a psychiatric assessment last week, and they recommended that I attend CBT sessions.
The problem is, I just don’t believe in therapy. (I believe that depression is a medical illness, caused by an imbalance in chemicals, so it needs a medical cure; if you can be “cured” by talking, then you were never depressed in the first place, you were just sad about something. I also have a strongly biased opinion that therapy is touchy-feely hippy nonsense, like homeopathy or acupuncture.)
In particular, CBT seems like nonsense to me. It seems to work on the assumption that negative emotions are based on some sort of faulty logic. But if I find myself in a crowd or talking to a stranger, there’s no logic going on, there’s no thought process at all, except for “ARGH!”. There’s no “why” behind it: I’m scared because I find these things scary!
So, is there any point in me going to these sessions, if I’m inevitably going to go in with a negative attitude? In my opinion, it’s like hypnosis, where it will only work if you believe it’s going to work.
I imagine that a lot of you will have had positive experiences with therapy. But in particular, I’m looking to hear from those of you who thought (or still do think) that therapy is nonsense.