Jewel Eye: Staring down the beryl (July Mini-Rants)

My client wouldn’t know a schedule if it hit them in the face. Couldn’t manage their way out of a paper bag with a map and a box cutter.

Utterly wasted my time today on their bullshit.

FML

I’ve had tinnitus forever. It can be fixed?

My son leaves for his BOLC (Basic Officer Training Course - basically Army onboarding) tomorrow. For the last month, I have been riding his ass to make sure he’s got everything he needs. Of course, today he comes asking how to obtain his immunization records. He was asking about getting his rank insignia for his everyday uniform earlier.

This shit should have been done weeks ago.

YES. I have tinnitus and that is a great description of it.

My understanding is that usually the answer is no. Sometimes tinnitus is a symptom of an acute condition that can be cured, and the tinnitus will go away when you deal with the cause. But when it’s caused by hearing damage (which occurs to many people over their lifetime, hence why older people end up with it) it’s permanent. Treatment involves things like using sound devices to help mask it (white noise generators and the like) or mental exercises to help you ignore it. In other words, ways to live with the condition.

And I’ve had it since I was a kid. Sometimes it’s not due to any damage you can point to, it just is what it is.

I’m sure.

If you asked me when I first started having it, I couldn’t tell you. I may have had it my whole life. It’s something I can ignore 90% of the time. It’s mostly a problem if I’m trying to sleep. But I think I’ve always had it to an extent, even as a kid. I suspect it got worse over the years, but I can’t say how much or how quickly.

It’s one of those things that you might not notice until you notice it.

I just can’t seem to get my shit together and it’s really frustrating. Left work early with a headache and a twitching eye yesterday. By the time I got home I was completely shut down. All I could do was lie in bed.

Today I was every bit as useless. I was planning to take Monday and Tuesday next week as paid days off, but I was so utterly fucking worthless today I had to make today a day off.

It’s the perfect smash up of hormones, PTSD, autistic burnout (I guess), PMDD and general shock as I process a potential new diagnosis. (I went to a therapist to get an autism evaluation, she told me she thinks I’m autistic, and I’m shocked. Triggered a full blown panic attack. When this is why I went to see her. Makes no damned sense.)

And just in time for my husband to take off for four days leaving me alone with the boy.

In the last year, my executive function days have swung from “quasi-functional” to “dysfunctional” to “a complete fucking wreck.” I don’t think I’ve had more than one good week since October.

I saw my shrink today and she recommended a specific kind of fish oil for perimenopause, so we’ll see.

I’m rapidly heading toward “can’t hold down a job.” It’s terrifying.

You’re heading toward “can’t hold down a job this week.” A little rest and time to adjust, and I suspect things will level out and you’ll be where you want to be. You’re the same you that’s gotten through all of this so far.

Thanks. I needed that.

Can concur- 12 years at a credit union in a barely customer facing role. Mostly behind the scenes bookkeeping stuff. And I had to take all of that training you mentioned every freaking year.

When a car is running out of gas, you don’t just abandon it on the side of the road. You fill it back up.

Unfortunately saw maganut on the bus.
I told him church guy told me their pastor has cancer and has metastasized.
He said hes going to talk to him about alternative healing.
Nicotine cures so many things!
Me-how come my dad got cancer from smoking?
Him-its the tobacco, not the nicotine.:roll_eyes:
And he wants Church guy to take him to the casino so he can cheat.

My friggin’ upstairs neighbor. Apparently he’s a real fan of potting plants. Being a courteous neighbor, not so much. My balcony is only about 8x3 - not a lot of room. Just enough for a camp chair to lounge on every once in a while. Above me, my neighbor has the same size balcony on which he routinely repots and waters his plants. The balconies are slats, so I get potting dirt and shit all over the place. And today, about five minutes after I walked in from the balcony, I hear what sounded like water leaking and I was afraid my sink burst or something. Nope, a bucket of water is pouring down on my balcony from above.

“Hey, excuse me! Hello? Excuse me?” Nothing. WTF. I was just going to ask him to please figure out a better way to water his plants.

I go upstairs and softly knock on his door. I hear him inside. I wait. Nothing. I knock again, politely, softly. I can still hear him in there but he won’t answer the door. I chose not to make a scene right then and there, but by the time I got back down to my apartment I was pissed all over.

“Hey! You’re dripping water all over me down here. Do you think you can get your shit together?”

Nothing. Chrissakes. Some people.

No, for the most part.

Speech pathologists can do aural rehab with you, teaching you coping skills and cognitive management of it.

Some hearing aids can be programmed by audiologists to ‘mask’ some tinnitus and focus on speech sounds. Far from perfect but better than we had a generation ago.

Years ago, I had really bad tinnitus in my right ear. Long story short, I had some major occlusion (ear wax and lint) that was pressing against my ear drum. As soon as it was cleaned out the tinnitus pretty much went away.

This is a perfect example of the kind of acute problem that can have tinnitus as a symptom and can be fully treated.

:+1:

My understanding is that this is not the usual case for tinnitus, but sometimes it happens.

Last month I reported to my HOA that my rook was leaking, and they said they’d send their rooking company to check it out. Today I got the report. It turned out that in addition to repairs to the roof itself (which are the HOA’s responsibility) the skylight needs to be replaced. At my expese, of course. Also the chimney cap needs to be replaced; while the latter does not need to be done immediately, they recommend it be done within two years - also at my expense. Total cost for the skylight and chimney cap is just over $2000.00.

One minor piece of good news - the replacement skylight comes with a built-in “solar blind” which, according to the roofer, qualifies for some sort of federal tax credit.

Wait, what?

In other words, don’t give up on yourself and call yourself a failure for being worn out.

You know you’re capable, give yourself a break.

I understood what you meant, and it’s good advice. I was just riffing on the idea that I’ve been abandoning cars on the highway. “Well, crap. I’d better get going. It’s a long walk to the dealership.”