I really do feel for Lobdell. Hell, there are days when I’d really like the comfort of faith, but it simply doesn’t exist for me, and I muddle through as best I can, working with the empirical universe as it is.
I suspect that his loss of faith wasn’t just disillusionment with the Catholic church’s cover up or anger with the televangelists’ greed.
Christianity says explicitly that they have The One Answer. That life, the universe, and everything is wrapped up in accepting Christ as your savior, and that if you fail to do this, you are doomed. It is permissible, even demanded, that you disbelieve all other faiths just as much as you believe in The One True Faith. When a system raises itself up as the only truth, then it must have the answers. All of them. For every situation. And the people who practice that belief must be able to put those answers to use. When those answers fail, when they no longer meet the needs of the believers, then that system is no longer the truth.
So Lobdell watched a growing crisis wherein innocents were brutally destroyed once by their rapists, a second time by their church, and a third time by their fellow believers. The pat answers given out again and again lose their virtue in the face of that overwhelming, pitiless tragedy. The system did not protect the innocents, did not prevent others from being hurt, and did not give those innocents justice. How can that system possibly be the One Truth under those circumstances? All the others are already disbelieved. Now there is nothing left to support faith in it. So, faith dies.
I think also that it’s easy to ignore certain paradoxes about the nature of an all-loving, all-knowing, all-powerful God until you come face to face with true evil. Some suffering can be considered necessary to come to a true understanding of morality, but when that suffering is so destructive there is no way to overcome it, that all-loving/all-powerful/all-knowing God is on the hook for the universe He created and is running by His rules.
It (in my opinion) simply isn’t possible to reconcile the miseries we, God’s creation, suffer with a God who created our world the way it is and loves us through it all. I think that’s the point Lobdell must have come to, and I think that is why he lost his faith.