Yet another topic I am compelled to respond to .
I was one of those pony/horse crazy little girls . There was no reason for the obsession , I was born living in the city , my parents were not horse lovers , I had no real contact with them other than the occasional pony ride . Nevertheless , I grew up loving them . No , loving them does not do justice to it ; it was passion , obsession . I am almost 45 years old , and still is .
Growing up , my favorite toys were Breyer horses and the Johnny West horses . I did play with Barbies , but my Barbies were not models or teachers or nurses - they owned stables and kennels . I begged , I pleaded for a pony of my own , to no avail . When I was 6 , they did break down and let me take riding lessons , for not quite a year , untill I fell off for the first time , and Mom decided that I would be killed if I continued the lessons , and made me stop . To ‘make up for it’ , they bought me a piano and forced me to take piano lessons . I hated it , despised it , and this lasted MAYbe 4 months . To this day , I do not like piano music .
When I graduated high school in 1978 , I did not want a car or jewelry . I wanted a horse . And my parents finally came through . They bought me a wonderful 1/2 Arabian gelding named Star , who had been abused . I nursed him back to health , and loved him like I had never loved anything before … or since . He was my world . I had him for 4 wonderful years , until my job went belly up , and my money ran out , and I was forced to sell him , easily the hardest thing I have ever done . I got a second horse 2 years later , but we never bonded , he ended up breaking my arm , and I sold him , as well . This was in 1986 , and I have been horseless ever since .
A part of me is dead without a horse in my life . The closest comparison I can make is like junkie craving their drug . I don’t just like riding , I crave everything about them , I love the way they smell , I enjoy grooming , cleaning stalls , everything . It is something you are born with , I believe this fully . I get teary-eyes listening to the song Run For the Roses . Watching horses moving in slow-motion on TV literally leaves my breathless . I collect Breyer horses (and Peter Stone , Hagen Renaker , and the REALLY expensive artist resins…) to this day , my collection is right around 450 pieces , and probably valued at $20,000 .
I have many health problems including severe arthritis in my spine (Guess what caused it ? A fall from my horse …) and it is highly unlikely I will ever be a horse owner again . I do not feel like I am complete .
Is there a why ? I cannot answer that . According to the psychic Sylvia Browne , those of us who have an unnatural attachment to horses were probably strongly connected to them in a past life , and that seems to be as good of an explaination as any to me .
I do not try to understand it any longer , I just live with it , and I die a little inside each day that passes that I am cut off from what I love more than anything else in the world 
Anna