We all have books/music/TV shows/etc that we used to listen to as kids/teenagers that, upon looking back, are not as… totally awesome… as we once thought. But how about stuff that we got into in our 20s, 30s, and beyond that, looking back now, you wonder “Did I really like that? Why?”
To me, the #1 example of this (currently) is Harlan Ellison. I got into him when I was 21, 22 or so which started a good 5-10 year period where I would try to find and read everything the man wrote (especially his non-fiction essays), all of it read with the knowledge that I was reading one of the Greatest Living American Writers EVAH. I’d go to conventions and get him to sign books, making sure to attend every workshop/conference/lecture that he was scheduled for.
And, as you know, life happens. I caught up with most of his stuff so that the backlog shrank (meaning I read less and less Ellison viz other authors). I got into different authors, different mediums… also got married and had a kid. So the Ellison books were picked up less and less often, to the point where year(s) would pass before my picking up a Harlan Ellison book.
So about a year ago, I decided to revisit Mr. Ellison and recapture the love by reading through the more than 25 novels/collections/essays, spanning 4 decades, that were on my shelf. And while he is an amazingly talented author, I frankly got bored with his histrionics, the way that any and everything that he didn’t like/care for was A Threat To Liberal Civilization As We Know It. Star Wars (making people stupid). Video games (teaching kids that there’s no winning in life (huh?)). People he disagreed with politically. Child beauty pageants. Jerry Falwell. Illiterate criminals. Kitty Genovese. The list goes on and on and on and… on.
It was wearying. It was tiring. It was like listening to a perpetually angry 24-year old rant about whatever he happens to be looking at. And I realized: I had outgrown Harlan Ellison; that whatever he offered to me 15 years ago… well, that was 15 years ago. I’m different now, but he’s still the same. (If you want my opinion, it was the kid that did it. For over 4 decades Ellison wrote like he’s still 24 years old, responsible for and to nobody but himself. It would be interesting to see how having the responsibility for another life would’ve modified Ellison’s writing (as far as I know he never had children. Sure never referenced them in his writing, and Ellison loves nothing more than talking about the World of Ellison.))
How about y’all? Anybody else go through something similar?