Right off the bat, let me say nobody’s opinions are gonna make the slightest bit of difference to the person who is actually ill. Nobody will be acting on anything. It is not me, it is my best friend, who is currently in one of the best hospitals in the country receiving some of the finest care available.
But because my friend is in the midst of getting that care I have been left panicking and high and dry waiting to hear more detail when she has the chance to share it. Making me crazy. I’m not blaming her. I’m just saying… my googling was giving me stuff that was a little too broad and not very reassuring.
Female, 67, naturally very thin, not fond of fat, not a drinker, regular exercise, lifelong smoker, but very, very light in recent years, 2 to 4 cigarettes per day. Lifelong pot smoker, but nothing in years.
Suffering from a bunch of weird maladies in recent years like Hashimoto’s, but no killer disease, generally healthy.
A few months ago she started having persistent gut issues, sort of all over the place. Pain on eating, nausea, diarrhea, bloating, constipation… You know the whole soup of things that can go wrong in that very complicated system.
Having good insurance, she has been getting the proverbial “battery” of tests. Plenty of blood work ups, colonoscopy, endoscopy, other oscopies, all her body fluids examined close range, really test after test after test. They did some heart testing a couple of weeks ago. I don’t know what kind, but a few days ago I think it was Thursday, they did a heart ultrasound. That evening she told me she figured it was OK because nobody said anything.
She was scheduled to have her gallbladder seriously gone over this coming week and we were sort of praying that that would turn out to be it, in spite of her not being a likely candidate, just because she’s running out of things to test and it’s such a simple fix: delete the offending organ.
Well, I hadn’t gotten any text back from her in a few days, pretty much since the day we spoke about her ultrasound. I hadn’t asked her anything, it just the sort of comments that she would react to and she hadn’t.
I have been pretty consistently asking her how she’s feeling almost every day for weeks and months now and she just is same/ or a little better/ or some medicine she took seem to work/ not work (it’s been maybe parasites, maybe bacteria, maybe viral. It’s been all over the map and nothing has cured it and no diagnosis has heretofore been offered in anything other than the most speculative way.
But today was very different. Our text conversation went like this:
ME: How ya doin’?
HER: At Cedars. It’s my heart.
ME: Woah…. what is it?
HER: Later
ME: I understand, but still, please as soon as you possibly can!
This is my best friend in the world. I love her so much and she’s so important to me. And I’m sitting here, not knowing if she went to the hospital today because she was feeling shitty (she’s done that a few times during this) or if after they looked at her ultrasound, they said, hustle your ass into the hospital!! I tend to think it was the latter because it’s Sunday and her other visits to the emergency room did not produce definitive answers worded as "it is X”.
So a-googling I went. I tried to narrow it to what heart ailments are most likely to manifest as ongoing gut issues of multiple types? And/or what heart ailments that can produce gut symptoms would be revealed on an ultrasound?
The answer seemed to be: everything that can go wrong with the heart, especially shit that can kill you.
Because she’s being treated and she’s getting what could very easily (according to my googling) be fucking terrifying information, I’m not gonna bug her and she knows I’m sitting here flipping out and I just have to wait to hear from her.
But while I wait… anyone (with either experience personally or professional education) wanna speculate? Reassure? Help me brace for the worst?