Ramble on, my friend. That is what we are here for.
A small tale, to perhaps give you some small amount of hope. A lady I cat-sit for (who is also a friend) has a cat with Inflamatory Bowel Disease. Her employment was causing her to have to go out of town for almost a week while he was having a very bad time. She and the vet decided to have him stay in the clinic while she was gone.
Every morning, I would go to her house and spend an hour with Felicia, feeding and brushing and changing the litter box. Felicia doesn’t really like me (which hurts my feelings, because most cats like me - we think it has something to do with the fact that I trapped her as a feral kitten), but I was better than being totally alone.
Then I went to the clinic (where I used to work) to spend some time with Zack. The first day or so, he would eat a little bit while I was there. Other than that, he was being force fed.
Every evening, the same routine - Felicia, then Zack.
Zack started to eat a bit more, but still hadn’t eliminated on his own. The vet said he could go home as soon as he pooped.
When my friend got home from her business trip, she only lasted a day with Zack in the clinic. She asked to take him home, and if he didn’t eliminate she would bring him in for euthansia.
When she released him from the carrier at home, he ran to the litter box and took a massive dump. He’s been fine ever since.
I realize your baby isn’t going to “be fine” since she has cancer. But she may well eat better at home than she will in strange and often frightening surroundings. If you have to take her in every day or so for IV fluids - if she seems to be happy and is eating and pain free, love her while you can and let her know she is loved. When it is time for her to cross the Bridge, it will be easier for having the love.
{{{jsgoddess}}} I am thinking of you and Ugly, and sending out all the love I can. I wish there was more I could do. E-mail me if you would like.