Guin,
I hear ya. As far as the job thing goes, I don’t know what your current school situation is, but I can tell you that I am in the middle of school (three-ish semesters to go) and found a halfway decent job. The only way I’d be really happy is if I made it as a famous rock star, but baring that, I’ll just stick with it until I get my degree and get out of debt (in like 10 years, sheesh!). I’d say that as a humanities type person in school, a secretary/data entry kind of job is what I’d expect to beable to get without a degree. I landed a desktop publishing/secretary-type job, working for a woman I knew before hand, which I’m enjoying to a reasonable degree. It’s hard, and I’ve kind of come to the decision that all dreams except your dream job are going to be disapointing to some degree. You’ve just gotta suck it up and figure that one day your ship will come in.
Oh, and muah
About the love life, I also hear that. I went downtown tonight with a friend, and I’ll just say that trying to randomly find someone is not only really dificult, but it also leads to depression and let-down. iampunha already said, find people around whom you can relax, and I’ll second that for the most part. Although, for me, those people seem to think I’m just that asexual guy who’s just happy all the time, but really I’m like the clown who’s got the smily face paint on but’s crying inside… I’m now getting into the unhelpful phase here, so I’ll sign off…
but I will say, hey, I don’t know where you are, but come to the dopefest in Boston next weekend, sometimes just spending time with folks who like you will do the trick.