As I’ve mentioned here a few times before, I get migraines. Bad ones. Anyway, I finally found a good neurologist that I absolutely love, and he put me on a new migraine preventative medicine called Topamax.
It wasn’t his fault I had problems with the medicine. Heck, I had problems that weren’t even listed in the five gazillion possible side-effects in all the material we read.
My appetite was supressed, which was normal. However, it was not normal when it would get to the point where it would be at the end of the day and I’d have to force myself to eat something after realizing I’d barely let food touch my lips since that morning.
My temperature comfort level was way off. I couldn’t find that listed as a side effect anywhere, but I always felt as if I were either absolutely dying of heat (to the point where I would end up going up to my room, turning on the fan, lying under the bed naked, and wishing I were in Siberia) or turning into a human popisicle.
I was always tired. I would have trouble getting to sleep, and then, even though I would sleep late enough to get those doctor recommended number of hours of sleep, I would still be tired.
The worst part, however, was my mood. I became depressed. There were days when I wouldn’t leave the house or even bother to get dressed. I stopped being happy. Things which I once would have jumped at the chance of doing didn’t even interest me anymore. I would burst into sudden bouts of unprovoked tears that I still don’t know the cause of. I stopped caring about things. Worst of all, I could even see this happening to myself.(This all happened over a period of about 2 weeks) However, the Topomax stopped the migraines, and I was having a very difficult time finding a medicine that would. They kept that horrible, dreadful, almost unbearable pain from being unleashed upon that one poor spot in my head.
I tried forcing myself to act like my old self, but it just didn’t feel worth the effort. I finally realized that even keeping my migraines at bay wasn’t worth sacrificing being happy for, so I called my neurologist today. I’m no longer taking the Topomax. Since I’m going away, he doesn’t want to start me on any new medications until I’m back, which means that I just have to put up with any migraines I get
and take all those other medicines I have to lessen the severity when I get one. But I get to be my old self again!