Hi,everyone its le fille intellectuelle!
This is my very first post on the SDMB & to be honest I’m so glad to finally find a community that I can say it like it really is without restriction.
Anyway,I’ll get to the point,which is that ever since I moved from a small town in the Southeast to L.A.,people have flat out followed me,harassed me,told me I’m beautiful.
Now,I really didn’t think about how different life would be in a big city,since I mostly stick to myself.
Mostly black guys,it seems like,feel the need to come to me & speak there deepest thoughts on my level of beauty.
“Good Morning” I desperately avoid,since it often turns into “you are FINE”!
Too often I’m just walking by myself & people will look at me & then come up to me & tell me how beautiful I am.
Most of it I’ve chocked up to them used to seeing people that are so unnatractive that “I” look good to them.However,since aparently I’m not good enough to get into Maxim,I fail to understand.
Sometimes its people that aren’t black that will feel the need to just walk up to me & tell me I’m lovely.Still the majority of the people that comment on my beauty are men,mostly black.
So,that’s the reason why I feel that I’m not beautiful.Its that I question the intelligence of the people who claim I am.
It would actually be a refresher to have a caucasion male or even someone foreign tell me “hey,you’re a goddess”.
The quality of the men that comment on my so called “beauty” is in question.
Personally,I’m a mid-late 20’s half black/half Arabic woman so I do understand it when people ask me if I’m from another country.One of my parents is from another country so I’m literally half foreign.
My face is sort of an oval shape which is why I wish my hair was long.However my nose is way too big & I have issues with the super slow growth rate of african-american textured hair.
My skin used to be really light,almost yellow,but I fear that this L.A. sun has made me darker.Regardless of what anyone thinks,I would be so happy if my skin were barely tan,or even porcelain.
So,anyway,due to my awkward hair & choice of career,I often find myself wearing wigs/extentions.That’s when it gets completely out of control with the comments from people.
Due to the people that I know in the industry that I work in,I know that I’m not beautiful by their standards.
Is it that I’m too sensitive or am I really as beautiful as people claim I am?