(before I go any farther, please forgive me in advance for getting silly and emotional, which I’m apt to do right now.)
I really, really hate what I do for a living right now.
I work in the TV industry. Specifically, I run the engineering department for a local television station (well, TWO stations, actually - we bought a second one this summer and we’re running the two of them from one building now) and I used to love it.
I loved the challenge of taking on new projects all the time. I love designing and building systems and making them actually work. I love to innovate and solve problems.
But as of late, I’ve become more and more of a manger and less and less of an engineer. I guess it goes with the territory - I worked myself in to a senior management job, so I have to be able to deal with the stuff that goes along with that. That said, however, I’m sick of laying people off, cutting budgets beyond the bone and living with this constant feeling that not only am I hurting people that I work with (or used to…) but that I’m really helping to contribute to a medium that has become increasingly vapid, stale, irresponsible and concerned only with the price of the stock today.
I’m in the mood for a career change I think. And this time, I mean a BIG career change. You see, I’ve been doing this basic kind of job (radio & TV broadcast engineering) for almost 25 years in various capacities. I spent some time early on in computer manufacturing, but that was short term. I’m a broadcast engineer and that’s what I do. I hold various certifications and memberships in various professional organizations. In other words, I’ve invested a fair amount of time and personal “stuff” in my career. I’m actually proud of my accomplishments and what I’ve created over the years.
That said, however, I’m sick of it.
The problem though is that I’m not sure how to even start thinking about a change. Part of the reason, I’ll admit, is the “golden handcuffs” syndrome - I have a nice mortgage, a nice motorcycle payment and several other nice bills and I have to admit that I like the money I make. Part of the reason, however, is just plain fear. Fear of making a change as large as I’m thinking about.
(Oh, and before you ask, I’ve not actually put a specific “what” to this big change yet - I’ve run everything from going back to school to driving a cab to making donuts to becoming an airline pilot though my skull…)
I’ve also tended over the years to be one of those people who “live to work” and I define an awful lot of myself in terms of my profession. I think of myself as a broadcast engineer (and a damned good one, I might add) first and everything else second - not too healthy, I realize, and I’ve been trying to shift focus in that area lately.
Like most people, I have a lot of interests. Photography, drawing, motorcycling, sailing, building Jeeps, etc. It would be great to make a change of career that would allow me to make use of some of my other interests and lay off the techie stuff for a while.
I don’t know, maybe it’s just plain stress and being pissed off with current situations at work (we’re going through some more mandated cuts and we’re already working 16 hour days) and I’m being grumpy. I told my boss, in private, today that if I wasn’t leaving for two weeks vacation in three days, I would have resigned.
So, exactly why did I start this post? I guess I’m looking for ideas?? I think I’m looking to see who among you amazing Dopers out there has overcome the fear and uncertainty of this kind of thing and made a major life change like this?? Where did you start? How did you figure out where you were going?
… sigh. I don’t know whether I feel better or not, but at least that’s all out.