Ok, this is probably the most mundane and pointless post here up to this point, but…
There’s a book in Judaism called the Pirke Avot…it means “Ethics of the Fathers”. It’s a collection of sayings by notable Jewish rabbis up to the time period the Talmud was written down. There’s a saying in there by Rabbi Akiba that’s always made me a little sad without knowing why…maybe more a little wistful.
Are you using the Sephardic or the Ashkenazaic Hebrew? I thought that it was Pirke Avos and Rabbi Akiva. (But that was in a book I read a loooooong time ago.)