Sorry to hear about Piper’s problem- I hope it turns out to be nothing at all.
Sadly, I had to put down my MIL’s beautiful Newfoundland bitch Holly last week. She was a sweet but stupid rescue dog who had lots of problems but a heart as big as her shadow. She had been fighting a recurring infection that turned out to be drug-resistant staph (MRSA). My MIL had lost three other dogs in the last ten years, and she just couldn’t face it again.
So I took her to the vet and sat with her until she fell asleep and slipped away. It was the hardest thing I have ever done, in my entire life. But I loved her and she deserved as much love and respect at that moment as I could give her. I am glad I was able to do it, and I would do it again, in a heartbeat. My dogs have showered me with unconditional love since they day we met, and I can give them nothing less in return, on the one day they really need me to be the grown up.
I post this not to depress or upset you, but to share my experience with you and assure you that no matter how much it hurts, you can do what is necessary to love her, no matter what.
Here’s a shot of our girl.