Scary paths you could see your life taking

In My Humble Opinion
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Just thought of #9!

  1. (since I couldnt think of anything at first): To never max out any of my characters on WoW or any other MMORPG game I start playing. Yes, I will be one of those old hags (or maybe a cool grandma?) playin online with a bunch of “kids”! Heck, I may even TEACH them a thing or three- including pen/paper games, cards, reading tarot, astrology charts, etc. =D
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Id say an addict in prison not being able to see my family . I’ve struggled with cocaine addiction for the past few years. John T, it ain’t fun and after a while it certainly isn’t testing the waters. Its exspensive and it just simply hurts to walk in a dope house and see stacks of hundreds and i watch as my 50 bucks is added to the pile. Yeah, I could see me in prison for murdering these leeches.

The other vision is a hermit with stacks of books and video games around me not wanting to leave. I dream of the writing thing, then fading into obscurity, wealthy of course. However, Im sure I’ll sand and paint cars until I just can’t do it anymore. Yeah. Should have finished that degree in library science.

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Fusing to my couch.

Losing one of my cats in the miscellaneous stuff that I’m starting to just… leave around the house so that my husband and I have something tangible to be upset with eachother over, rather than this vague feeling of unhappiness that lives in our relationship.

I worry that I’m going to stay where I am mentally and emotionally, even though I feel myself wilting and shutting down because of it. I tell myself that there will come a breaking point and I will walk away from this and build something new, but every day feels like it could be a breaking point if I only cared enough to treat it as such.

I worry that I’ll wake up twenty years from now and see every opportunity I had to be happy and hate myself for letting each and every one slip by.

I worry that my kid will grow up and do as much worrying about his mom’s mental health and fretting about how to set boundaries within our relationship as I do with my own mother.

I guess I’m truly worried about never snapping out of this. Ick.

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Marrying somebody who likes that I buy her stuff and carries on extramarital affairs when she loses interest in me or gets “grass is greener” syndrome.

ETA (for extra scary): and yet who I am so hopelessly devoted to that even knowing this i can’t stop myself from continuing to support her because, apparently, I’m an idiot.