Ok, so some backstory:
Having been an unwise, short-sighted, irresponsible American consumer, I got my first credit card in my early 20s. Through my careless use of it, I began racking up debt. I have done basically everything I now know that I shouldn’t have done - missed payments, used one card to pay off another, etc. I have had some amount of credit card debt hanging over my head for all of my adult life. Early this decade, it finally reached crisis level - I had $30,000 of debt spread out among a number of high-interest cards. (I was only earning $25,000 a year at the time.)
I learned the really, really, really hard way to budget my money. I kicked some very expensive habits, got on a debt management program and slowly, diligently chipped away at the debt. Now I only have one credit card to repay (just about $3000) that I am on a special plan: Citibank directly debits my account for $200 each month and charges me a special low-interest (about 4%) However, the terms of the deal are very specific - if I miss even one payment, my interest rate gets jacked up to “market rate” (at least 20%) Nor can I lower the amount of money they debit. So even if I do pay them, but fall short of the $200 mark, the deal is off. And I’ve already asked Citibank if that was negotiable - It isn’t.
One of the biggest down-sides to the repayment is that I have been unable to amass any real savings. Money I might have otherwise stashed away in a savings account I had to shell out to HSBC and Citi. The one pocket of savings I did have was my 401k plan at my most recent job. I only qualified for it a few years ago, and for the last year of my employment the company had stopped making matching contributions. So, my account is at present a little under $8000.
At present, I have been out of work five months. I have had one or two day-long temp jobs, but still no long-term prospects. My severance has run out, what little money I did have in the bank is running out, and at the moment I’m “on the dole” - My unemployment check is what I’ve got. I’ve done some number crunching and realized that even the $200 a month might be difficult to keep up.
My biggest fear is watching my interest rates spiral out once again. I’ve been in the situation before of really trying to pay off my debt, but looking at my bank statements and seeing that the amount of interest charged to my account far exceeding what I could afford to pay out. I am in real terror of having come so close to finally paying off my back debt, only to see my interest rates spike, and then be unable to keep up, and see my debt balloon upwards again. That very well may lead me to become suicidal.
Added to that is my Cobra payments. Because of a snafu in my paperwork (long story), my Cobra benefits were terminated. I contested the decision and they’ve agreed to reinstate me - but only if I come up with a payment to cover all four months (January - April) that I wasn’t making payments to them. Cobra is $492 a month - almost $2000 they want BEFORE reinstating me - money I don’t have. Health insurance is something that may seem un-necessary when you’re healthy, but when you need it - you damn well need it. I learned that the hard way too, but that’s a different story. So I have that to consider as well.
Anyway, back to my 401K. The market value has pretty much remained stagnant for several years and no new money is going into the account. Of course, it has occurred to me that were I to cash it out, I would have enough money to pay off my back debt once and for all, and get my Cobra benefits shored up. And there would still be a little bit left off for me to stash in an IRA or savings account and start paying into $200 a month into it, rather than paying Citibank. And $8000 is something that wouldn’t take too long to recoup.
But, it’s my only retirement savings. I’m 41, and I’m already way behind on putting together a nest egg. And I have considered that this idea of paying off my debt with my 401 is likely the same type of short-sighted, quick-fix thinking that got me into this mess in the first place.
But I just don’t know - what would really be the better option for the long-run: holding onto the money I have now, or eliminating my debt once & for all? Any way I look at it, I see a lot of pros & a lot of cons for either option. So, what’s your advice?