[sub]swampbear falls in…dammit love leave me alone![/sub]
Some of you may remember that when I first signed on to the Dope I mentioned someone by the name of partner from time to time. Well, partner and I have since split up. Sad, yes, but ol’ Swamp has moved on from there.
I swore to OG that love would never find me again. Lust, hell yeah, but love, never never never!!!
I met this man through some mutual friends that made the ol’ hormones stir. Course I figured that nothing would happen, since if he and I were the last two gay men on earth he would probably start looking at all the women and saying “How YOU doin?” That is usually how it happens when I find somebody attractive, after all.
Well…guess what? Two weeks ago I get a phone call from HIM. (be still my beating heart) He said that he’d been talking to some mutual friends and understood that I was currently not seeing anyone. (teehee…inner teenage girl me said…teehee). He asked me if I would be interested in dinner, a movie or going for a drink sometimes. I, in all my urbane wittiness replied. “errrrrrrrrr…ummmmmm…gulp…wh…why sure…that’d be great.”
He asked me out for that following Friday. Asked me over for dinner and to watch a movie even! Well…I left that following Saturday afternoon (blush). He called me the next day and asked me out to lunch. We went to lunch then to his place for errrrrrrrrrr…ummm…dessert.
He called me the next day to say he had a great time over the weekend. (WOOHOO!) I asked him over last Friday for dinner and he said yes (teehee…inner teenage girl…teehee). Since it was a holiday weekend in the USA…he stayed til Saturday afternoon…I went over to his place Saturday night…and left Monday morning (blush). He had to leave Monday afternoon because of work…he travels for work. He called me Monday night from Dallas, TX to tell me he had a great time again and hoped that we’d get together some more.
OK…Swampy is between lust (of course) really liking this man and maybe the unspeakable L word.
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! I don’t need to do this! Dammit, this man is pushing all my buttons! He’s cute, hairy, handsome, yelled “Who’s Your Daddy Boy!” during sex to which I answered, “You Are Daddy.” And he wants to keep on seeing me. (sigh)
OK…so kinda pointless…but FUCK I don’t wanna fall in love! But he’s all that, a plate of buscuits and the gravy to sop with.
Dopers HELP!!! Tell me I am a fool to wanna fall in love or encourage me. Slap me till I get over it or convince me I should go for it.
DAMMMMMMMMMM he is one hot man. This may be TMI but the sex is some kinda HOT HOMO LOVIN!
Signing off now. Think HE is gonna call soon. <sigh> (teehee…inner teenage girl…teehee)