you know. I am so tired of applying to job after job after f’ing job and having them turn me away the second they find out I use a wheelchair.
“Oh, sorry, I don’t think it would work because you have to be able to carry things out to the car for customers.”
“Oh, sorry, some of our files are on high shelves and you wouldn’t be able to reach them, so I don’t think it would work.”
“Oh, sorry, our printer is in the way of the bathroom, so I don’t think we could accommodate you.”
“Oh, sorry, we want our people to stand up to greet clients when they come in.”
"Oh, sorry, our office area is kind of cramped and I don’t think there’s really space for a wheelchair.
You guys. I spend every day getting around stuff like that and figuring out ways to make everything work. It’s harder than it is for most people, but I do it. And I get that the world isn’t going to adapt to me and I have to adapt to the world and it’s a waste of energy and anger to get upset about it. But also, I work hard. I’m smart. I can figure just about anything out on a computer. Someone somewhere has to think maybe that’s worth moving the printer or letting me sit on a tall stool.
I worked at my last job for a long time and I still do work for them, but it’s an old building built into a hill and it really isn’t accessible. And it’s a project-by-project thing and I need full-time work in order to keep… like… surviving. I don’t need or want to be on disability. I CAN work. Not everywhere in every job, obviously, but there are quite a few jobs I could do if given the chance. And I mean, I get why people see the wheels and think it would probably just be a pain to have me around. I do. I get that chronic illness can sometimes (although not in my case) make people less reliable because their health is unreliable. I get that it’s easier not to rearrange anything for the sake of one person or have to worry about accommodating anyone. I get that everyone on the planet once had a cousin whose co-worker’s friend had a disability and used it as an excuse to get out of the unpleasant stuff at work and now they assume that everybody does that.
I know there are laws against discrimination. And I also know that it’s not always exactly discrimination because there are, in reality, practical considerations. And I’m not really sure where the line is. And I also know that saying “Excuse me, but I think this is discrimination” in an interview is not something that makes the kind of impression that gets people hired.
I just need a steady job. I promise I’m as low-maintenance at work as I possibly can be and there’s not much I can do to make myself more so. Job-hunting is always exhausting and dispiriting, but it’s even more so when you keep getting turned away for bullshit reasons completely beyond your control.