I awoke at 3 am that morning, tickled at first because my new tablet and news app was giving breaking news. New technology is truly amazing I thought as I focused and refocused my eyes at the words in the screen, short and to the point… 3 people were gunned down on my Cities University Campus.
This was on June 13th and it’s shock sent ripples through the city and the country not unlike but in its own way deeper than our Countries newest celebrity: Luka Magnotta.
I am not entirely sure why this story still brings tears to my eyes.
I never knew the victims. I never knew the killer… hell, I have only walked across that campus. But it hit me emotionally unlike every other murder killing rape disaster has…ever.
Maybe it was the fact that it was at the fucking U of A. Maybe it was because he was just like us, an Albertan, a kid some average joe I have interacted with hundreds of times. Maybe it was the age of him and his victims. The woman Michelle is the one that makes me the angriest.
What I can’t help but think is that maybe, just maybe this guy was a self diagnosed martyr. You read about his favorite game Gears of war, his contradictory Facebook and plenty of fish profiles, his quotations from Heath Ledgers portrayal of The Joker, and I think he has had these bi-polar thoughts for sometime. He doesn’t sound unlike a thousand other men I have met and scariest of all myself. He just had the means to act, but not the foresight to stop.
Killing three people and attempting to kill a 4th was totally unnecessary to steal a meager 330k and not even close to being worthwhile.
He was new to the job and as far as we know had no illregard to his coworkers who were just trying to live.
He could never get away, and I think he knew that.
He had a half asked attempt to flee and has not put up a fight since being captured almost like this was “All part of the plan.”
At this point I have nothing to say to him, nor any condolences to the victims families because nothing ever said or done will ever make a difference.
Travis, when I see you I see myself at a younger weaker time, and maybe deep down that’s what makes me the saddest. I am so so sorry for the victims families and I am to numb to want revenge or justice. I am not even sure I care to hear the reasons behind your actions. I just know that you have impacted me and hundreds if not thousands of people who can not go back to the way things are. I think of the Joker, like a dog chasing cars who wouldn’t know what to do if he caught one and I wonder if you think you were going to be that guy, that guy who shocked this small city by being the one who just murdered 3 people without any provocation.The ‘one’ who will change everything.
You are not the Joker, Travis. You are a damned fool who had unfounded opinions about himself and the world leading to your botched attempt at crime.
Why did you LOCK THE FUCKING SECURITY DOOR Trapping the one guard who lay screaming for help and dying for 15 minutes while the police desperately tried to break the glass. You had no fucking reason to kill these people, these fathers and newly weds these Albertans. You are beyond stupid and fucked up royally.
I want to forget your name and what you did and go back to pretend something so pointless could never ever happen.