In the thread on Drs’ opinions I posted that yesterday the hospice nurse said 1-2 weeks tops.
I think my wife has been getting more emotional as the end nears. And I have not helped as much as I could, because I remain the same compassionless jerk I’ve always been. Even tho my wife has said for years that she wishes her mom would simply not awake the next morning, she is now stepping up her visits. And even tho her SIL has been a complete PITA, wife is thinking how she will be able to support her making funeral arrangements, and whatever else is needed.
So I need to decide what I can do to support my wife. No need - at least at this particular time - for me to express my strong opinions as to what various people or institutions have done well or not…
Personally, I’m feeling more and more strongly that starvation is the way to go. Especially if I am ever in a situation where I am incapable of asking for food. No feeding tubes, and unless I’m asking for it, I don’t even want someone spooning food into my mouth or holding a protein shake up to my lips. Seems like a test I can live/die with. If I’m so far gone physically or mentally that I can’t even ask for food, if I don’t even KNOW that I’m hungry, just relieve any pain, hydrate me, and let me starve.