Tonight is my big night. Tonight I prove whether I deserve this forum name or not. Well, not really. But tonight is my Improv stage debut. A year ago I began improv classes, after years of watching it I was finally getting the opportunity to take the classes at my, now, place of employment - SAK Comedy Lab.
I found the thread I started when I first got signed up for classes, LAST June:
It seems like it wasn’t that long ago, but it’s been a full year since I began. A lot has happened in that year: I got the job with the theatre, I lost my mom, I grew up.
And tonight we find out if I am any good at this thing. I had a blitz of stage fright and panic during the weekend, a five minute attack of sheer fear coursed through my body. I didn’t let it take over, I stayed calm and worked through what I was feeling.
All my life I’ve sought something I had a natural gift for. For the first eighteen years I was looking for something that I didn’t even have to work at, I wanted to just be a natural great at something, anything! Eventually I realized that those people are usually 1 in a billion, if that common. So after that I began seeking something that I just had a natural inclination for, but also didn’t hate working at. Improv seems to be that thing. I’m not claiming to be great at Improv. I’m not even claiming to be okay. But I didn’t suck right out of the gate and I’ve gotten better over the last year.
After I worked through that I began realizing that the show isn’t just me, there are thirteen other improvisers up there with me and the show is a product of us all. We’re a team and when there are fourteen of us, we’re going to be fine. We’ll combine our skills and strengths and together the show will go okay.
Lastly I began realizing that just being on stage is a victory. Like being the fat guy in the gym, you’re still IN the gym, which is farther (further?) than most people get. Being on stage is something few people can do, and so to be up there and fail is still a victory.
Tonight’s show is a win no matter how the show goes. And I’m in it!
– Improv Geek