Before I start my (long, gross) rant, please know that I will be directing my concerns to my doctor in a phone call tomorrow and an office visit on Tuesday. I am not looking for medical advice, just a place to rant.
DoperGuy and I found out we were (are) expecting right around Christmas. Best Christmas present ever!! For a few weeks I felt better than I ever had in my life. I was a little tired and peed nearly constantly, but mentally I felt amazing!
Around week 5, everything changed. Ever since, I’ve been nauseous as hell. “Morning” sickness - hell, try morning, noon, night, middle of the night… Time of day has fuck all to do with it. From the minute I wake up to the minute I go to bed, I feel like complete and utter crap.
Forget weight gain…in the past 6 weeks, I’ve actually lost 15 pounds!!
I’ve tried two different anti-nausea meds. The first didn’t work due to reasons that are way TMI for this thread. The second made me feel like I was losing my mind.
I’ve also been stuffed up for about 2 weeks. I know this is a side effect of pregnancy. Mucous production goes into overdrive - everywhere. But come on, quit it already! The post nasal drip is having a field day with my stomach as well as my breath. I’m stuck in a horrible catch 22 here. If I don’t constantly brush my teeth, my breath gets so bad I can’t stand the taste of my own mouth - more nausea ensues. But when I do brush my teeth, I gag so badly it’s all I can do to keep from puking right into the sink!
The doctors tell me to keep eating, that it’s the only way to help the nausea. I try, really I do. But you try eating food when every single thing tastes - and now smells - like shit and everything seems to make me feel worse rather than better.
Speaking of smells… every room in my house smells different. Disgustingly different. I can’t open the fridge without gagging.
TMI WARNING!!
And speaking of shit… I can’t - shit that is. I thought this wasn’t supposed to hit until the second trimester. I’ve gone a grand total of 3 times in as many weeks. I look like I’m about 5 months pregnant when I’m less than 3. At first, I just chalked it all up to not eating much. Not much in = not much out, right? But this is getting ridiculous!
I just have to keep repeating to myself that it will eventually get better. I’ve got less than 2 weeks until I’m officially through the first trimester. Even if I’m one of the rare ones that is sick the whole time, I only have to get through to September.
If you actually made it this far, thanks for reading. No matter how much he loves me, this is something that DoperGuy just doesn’t understand and I desperately needed to get this off my chest.