I’ve had a run of a particular type of patient lately. Committers of horrific premeditated murders, makers of pre-adolescent porno, inflictors in sexual torture, serial killers. This is not a new experience for me; I’ve been serving a population of troubled individuals for a while now and such extreme cases, while uncommon, are sadly not rare.
Most of my typical patients are lost souls, or poor decision makers, or folks who grew up in such impoverished environments that it’s a wonder they could even feed themselves much less be expected to be functioning citizens. That last class can be easy to spot, as their dysfunction is often writ large in their mannerisms and demeanor. They act out emotionally and impulsively and violently in ways that often horrify them quickly afterwards. Or at least cause some genuine remorse.
But this latest run of men who did long-planned truly evil acts has given me pause to reflect on these extreme cases that I’ve encountered over many years. I will not name names, nor further describe their crimes. But what struck me was how damned ordinary they all were, in presentation, speech, demeanor, responses. Yet these were not the Eichmann types of banal evil-doers; the bureaucrats who went along to get along, performing their tasks without malign intention. I’ve seen enough of those types. The type of which I write now were not cogs in a vicious machine but rather chose their actions because that’s what they wanted to do.
I don’t delve into their psyches, fortunately. I deal with their physical health, and treat them as any other patient. And if not for their notoriety, I’d not know what crime they did as that’s not part of our conversation. Nor would I be able to differentiate them from most of my other patients, nor the typical man on the street or neighbor I’d loan my chainsaw to (which would be a big mistake in these specific cases). They’re just so damn ordinary. Which makes me ponder, and is why I’m writing my random maunderings on the topic here.
This is certainly not a new revelation. I’m not gonna trumpet that “I’ve discovered that ‘nice’ people do horrible things, and we must alert the Press!” Legit researchers have explored this topic much better than I ever will.
I am a bit surprised I’m not grinding my teeth in rage at these folks, nor imagining myself inflicting my vision of justice on them, with hot and pointy and heavy things. I used to have such strong responses in the past (to the point where my dentist told me to knock it off or I’d need major reparative work), but now I tend to just feel sad for their victims and content that these particular patients of mine will never be free again. And I continue to ensure they get the appropriate necessary care they need medically.
But I won’t loan my chainsaw to just anybody who asks for it anymore.
Anyone else had to reflect on this rather morbid topic due to these sorts of second-hand experiences/interactions? I don’t really want to open a discussion on the nature of evil so much as hear how others with some experiences in their lives view this issue.
I also don’t mean to call on the victims or family/friends of victims of such individuals here to dredge up their feelings and recollections; I can’t imagine dealing with it from that point of view.
Thanks for listening to my blather.