I had a brain MRI scheduled for today. I’ve been getting dizzy and having facial numbness, and my doc wants to make sure I didn’t have a stroke or an aneurysm.
I haven’t had an MRI done sine I was a kid, so I honestly answered that I didn’t know if I’m claustrophobic or not. I went in unmedicated.
I was fine when I laid on the board. I was fine when the tech put the weird medieval helmet thingy over my face. I was fine when he put the foam pads along my face to hold me in place.
I kept my eyes closed through all of that. It was fine. I was fine.
Then he slid the table into the tube. I saw, even through my closed eyes, how much darker it was in there. My heart quickened, and I felt my chest get tight.
I simply said “I’m getting really anxious in here.”
The tech got me out. He said this type of thing happens pretty frequently.
I contacted my doctor’s office, but it will be at least tomorrow until I get a script for a Valium or a Xanax. Then I need to reschedule the MRI. I get to freak out about my brain until then (what if it’s a tumor? “It’s not a too-mah!”).
Sorry to just blog like this here. My wife and my boss are the only two people who know what’s going on. I can’t run out to Facebook and post this, so I needed somewhere to vent.