This is just so odd I have to share it with SOMEONE. I’ve already shared it with my husband but he doesn’t seem to get how ODD it is.
Even though I haven’t always been fat, I’ve ALWAYS had an obsessive relationship with food. I attribute this mostly to my mother’s extreme approach to nutrition. White flour, sugar, chocolate, artificial colors/flavors, etc…all completely forbidden. Needless to say, whenever I had the rare opportunity to eat oreos, I ate oreos like someone who might never see an oreo or any other good thing ever again.
She wasn’t quite able to bring herself to simply have us opt out of Halloween however, so the Halloween rule was: You may eat all you want Halloween night and then we throw the rest away. The logical conclusion was bingeing and deception.
By the time I was 16 I was bulimic. By the time I was 22 I had stopped purging but not bingeing. I just decided being fat was better than being as f*cked up as I was as a bulimic.
Since then I’ve slowly slowly worked on becoming more food sane, never ever depriving myself, since that has always backfired massively. Somehow, I passed some sort of threshold this year. I’ve been steadily losing weight for the first time ever. I still, every day, have some sort of treat food, usually involving sugar and chocolate.
I have always considered Halloween candy, the stuff we buy and the stuff my kids bring home, to be fair game.
and this year (age 39), I’m just totally disinterested. I looked at a pile of snickers, kit kats, reese’s cups, hershey bars, etc. and just couldn’t muster up enough interest to bother opening one.
THAT IS SO TOTALLY WEIRD! My whole life Halloween has been a massive, culturally sanctioned pig out. And now I just can’t be bothered. It’s like seeing a penny on the ground, just not worth my while.
I almost feel like I OUGHT to eat some candy on principle.
The oddest thing is I couldn’t really even tell you why the change has occurred.
