START, I know you as a sincere and thoughtful person, so I’m angry not with you, but I do need to get across to you just how insulting and thoughtless this idea is.
Over the past several years, I have grown more and more atheistic in my beliefs. Not because I’m insecure or because I want to do bad things and get away with them, but because as I look at the world around me, I see that the Christian faith does not jibe with the reality of my life. It doesn’t fit. I would have to deny the evidence of my senses and give up on logical thought to become a Christian. It’s not going to happen.
If there is a God, and if I am created by that God, then that God intended for me to be as I am. I am not damned to eternal torment because of the actions of two supposed people millenia ago. I am not damned to eternal torment because I will not lie about what my mind perceives of the world around me. I do not need the torture and death of one poor man to protect me from the retribution of the God who made me. Hell, if that’s the price, I’ll stand up and pay it. I don’t expect some other schlub to take the blame for me.
If I am a good person, it’s because I act out of the love in my heart and the need to see the world become a better place. If I help a person, it’s because I understand their pain and wish to stop it. It’s not because I believe my creator will give me a metaphysical spanking at the end of my life if I don’t. Along with that, if I do some evil, a quick apology is not going to cut it, and I won’t make amends because my creator is tapping His foot I do it because I have caused pain, and I have a responsibility to deal with it.
START, you have found an answer for yourself. I congratulate you. But you need to understand that it is not The Answer for every other person. You have found a truth that helps you understand the world around you, but it is not The Truth for every other person. The fact that others have looked at your answer and shrugged does not mean there is something wrong with them - or even something wrong with your answer. When you go around saying things like “Most Atheists are insecure about their belief or lack of and the only reason they don’t believe in anything is because they don’t want to be accountable to any God or Gods”, you are saying that your answer is better than theirs - not just for you, but for everyone. That’s insulting. It’s narrow-minded, and it’s guaranteed to drve people away from you and the faith you have to share.
In fact, I would go so far as to say that any person who feels the need to push their faith on others does so because they are insecure and want everyone to think like them so they don’t have to face questions or doubts about their beliefs.
As to your question, my answer is no. I wouldn’t have gone to the church service with a pushy evangelist to begin with, and if they were bugging me while I was on my deathbed, I’d have them removed. Then, I would face my death - I hope - with dignity and clarity, knowing that if there is a God, then I am His Creation and I will be welcomed just as I am, disbelief and all. Or, that with my death, I will cease to exist as anything but a memory and some paperwork, and that perhaps during my life I made the world a better place.