I lost my job last July . I am a high school graduate ,but have had no college , and have worked in factories since I was 18 (soon to be 45 now) , but HATED every single minute of it .
I have applications in all over town , everywhere I can think of to put one in , even low-paying places like WalMart . No takers . I am still unemployed .
My father died a little over a week ago . I have a little bit of money to last me a while , but I have to find work , and am at a loss where to turn . It is a frightening , frightening prospect .
No job lined up for the summer yet. This is bad, as I start college in the fall and need to start bringing in some form of income.
I have Prom day after tomorrow so I want that to be as perfect as I can make it.
I have tennis tomorrow. Tennis which I am taking for my need of a gym credit. And now, for my lack of attendence due to uncircumventable circumstances, the team is voting on whether or not I get my credit. My credit which I need to graduate. Lovely.
I’m in a much more fortunate position than most who have posted in this thread. I have a good job, which I normally like a lot, but…we have a major program being implemented in mid-July and the number of things I have that are overdue is OVERWHELMING!
And, of course, there’s the added bonus of a) one of my key employees being out for six without warning (my only problem employee and I can only feel like I’ve been sabotaged, although I think it’s more a convenient coincidence) and b) the other key employee getting a promotion that is effective shortly BEFORE implementation (that’s really just bad timing - it’s a great opportunity).
And this month is when most of my extra-curricular activities are scheduled to happen and there’s no way I’m giving that up…real life comes first. Mostly that just adds scheduling challenges.
I’m mediocre at everything I can’t communicate anything to anyone and I get so angry sometimes I want to saw off my leg or rip off the closet door and toss it out the window because it feels so damn good. I believe violence is stupid but everyday I run into someone whose head I’d like to tear off, there’s so much wrong with the world but everyone who tries to change it is an idiot and I’m an even BIGGER idiot because I spend all day sitting at the computer throwing my life away.
One of my band members left with short notice and without saying why (after she had been telling me that she really wanted “more than anything” to be in it) I have two tests tomorrow, I feel inadequate with regards to… EVERYTHING, but ESPECIALLY when I play the bass nowadays.
I have a gig to play at school in a few weeks and now lack a second electric guitarist and have to bust my motherfuckin’ ass to get one who knows the material and is willing to play with us.
The fact that, tomorrow, I need to go and sit down with the dean of the college and convince him that I don’t need to take a year or two off. I probably will be able to stay, but the fact that I screwed up badly enough to make that in issue has me wallowing in a sense of failure. Plus, avoiding my parents’ questions until then, because if they find out, I’m Screwed.
Everything else, like finding a summer job and packing my room up, is completely meaningless in the shadow of that.
I just finished a long, arduous month of field work in the Everglades. All went well…at least I thought I did until yesterday, when one of the lead scientists of my project informed me that I hadn’t followed a certain procedure correctly. This was after he had already informed my boss and had requested a meeting to discuss the matter with the both of us.
Um, he could have at least called me first and asked for an explanation (and I have a good one, thankyouverymuch!) before blabbing. Now I will be put on the spot and have to defend myself, which I’m not really good at doing. My boss may stick up for me. He may not. sigh
This is pretty minor compared to some of the stories shared, but I’ll take up dare_devil007’s offer to vent.
My in-laws are driving me insane. Like, maybe criminally insane, I’m not sure yet (keep an eye out for me on the evening news). They planned this enormous summer vacation extravaganza, and have now changed those plans about a hundred times, and somehow “forget” to let us know about the changes. At no point in their planning have they taken any of our preferences or work needs into account.
I feel bad for Mr. Del because we live far away from his family and don’t get to see them very often. The pressure of putting on a good face for his benefit is starting to give me anxiety attacks.
I hope the rest of you find good resolutions to your stressful situations soon!
Let’s start short-term. I leave for Canada to go fishing on Sunday. I’ve not tested the boat motor, found the spare fuel tank, replaced the broken boat lights, or any of the 85 other things that need to be done before I go.
My wife has 2 part-time jobs, and both are over-running their typical hours. One is at 25+ hours/week, and the other hit 55 hours/week two weeks ago. So, I’m trying to work FT and hold the house together while she scrambles around.
Work has been stressful because things are falling through the cracks, and I’ve caught some of the blame (To be fair, in two cases, I should have). But I’m having a hard time getting the ambition to correct the problems. I’m ready to get my resume out, but been too lazy to start the process.
I’ve gained 25 lbs in the past year, and I’m not able to lose it. Can’t get enough exercise, mostly due to kids and a wife working too much.
Long-term:
My Mom has MS and PSP (Progressive Supra-Nuclear Palsy). She’s living alone, but really needs to move. And I’ve got 2 houses to maintain while she lives there, and I need to get her house ready to sell when she moves.
I’m also the POA for mom, so all her financial transactions are my business. And the insurance companies cannot seem to keep their policies up to date and correct for her accounts.
I stayed a steady weight (185) all winter long, and then put on seven pounds in the course of the past month and a half. I’m having some sort of trouble with my gut and I’m bloating, plus feeling very fat and unattractive (Did I mention I’m a guy?).
When I say this to my wife of 14 years, hoping desperately that she’ll say “Well, you’re still handsome in my eyes,” or even just “I’m sorry you feel fat and ugly,” she instead says “You’re fat because you eat crappy foods.”
So that’s why I’m stressed and unhappy. Christ, I’m unhappy.
Next week I start going to the dentist, to have my teeth rebuilt from scratch. It’s going to be painful, and so expensive that it will put off our being able to afford to buy a house for at least a decade. Nothing inspires terror in me except dentistry. I would almost rather be in a fatal car accident, or join the foreign legion. But it has to be done, or I’ll lose my ability to speak, and lose my job where I speak for a living, and it opens me up to health problems, and extreme embarrassment, being ugly, and like that.
Compared to some of the situations you all are going through, this is nothing. I really feel for you guys and gals. I hope things get better for you, as soon as possible.
Biggest stress right now is trying to get the help my toddler with the developmental disorder needs to get started ASAP. Also , I’m having trouble coming to terms with this diagnosis and what it means for my dreams & hopes for my child and my family.
Other stresses include :
upcoming exploratory surgery next week
awaiting an appointment for an MRI of my injured knee before I can see an orthopedic surgeon
my childcare arrangements had fallen completely apart for the 2nd time this year (but we were able thank God to get help for that)
the workload at the clinic has become completely nuts and I’m worried what will happen to my patients while I’m off work
I’m feeling so stressed that there must be more, but I can’t think what … Anyway, may we all find the strength and support to cope.
The worry I’m trying to push to the back of my mind at the moment is the fact that the Portsmouth Naval Shipyard has gotten on the recommended list for base closures, again. The company my dad works for gets most of their business from the shipyard, and I know how hard it is for someone in their mid-50s to find a new job - it took him about a year to find this job, which he likes, after being laid off from a company he was with for 15 years. They won’t decide which on the list to close until the fall, and even if they do close the base it won’t be until 2011 so the business has time to diversify maybe, but still, it scares me
The more consuming worry is about my own job.
Our biggest contract is coming up, and they’ve chosen the least competent person to promote and head it up. He spends most of his time hitting on female employees about 1/2 his age, and puts in more hours than he’s supposed to because he wastes so much time talking. We all will probably get called to the carpet about how long it’s taking to benchmark (set the standards) for that project. Well, not me or one other person since we’re training/supervising another project at the moment, but everyone else will since they like to complain to groups rather than single out the people who’ve pissed them off.
We’re supposed to begin on June 6th, which overlaps with my current project that isn’t supposed to end until the 16th. I’ve never worked on this state before, which has completely different standards than most other states. How am I supposed to be trained myself if I’m doing something else the first ten days? The two of us have already missed two days of leadership training.
So far they only have 1/2 of the people they need to supervise the new project, and some of the names being bandied about for new leadership positions scare the hell out of me since I know the people in question. People I’ve recommended haven’t been approached yet, which annoys me for some reason.
The procedures for the project itself sound nightmarish, and we’re going to be hiring people constantly to replace people who have an accuracy level that doesn’t cut it, meaning we’ll be training brand new people over and over again. I am, however, curious to see what the “security cages” for storing secured materials will look like.
I may or may not be promoted myself (rumors are evil, even if it’s for something potentially good) but I’m not sure I can handle the stress - the dolt I mentioned earlier already seems really stressed and it’s only been 2 weeks since he was promoted- or the unhappiness it might cause some other people who are leadership and feel a sense of entitlement because they’re older though no more experienced except in one case…I hate being resented for things I can’t control. I don’t think I’d like to be promoted before the fall, so I’m trying to put as little credence into the rumormill as possible, and not attempt to pester my way into the position like the dolt did. I bet he regrets being so eager now!
The next four months are going to be hard to get through, but hey, it’s job security. At least that’s what I tell myself. I do like my job, but not so much right now. Maybe it won’t be as bad as everyone thinks. Maybe.
I’m graduating from high school in a few weeks and I feel kind of ambivalent about the whole thing. I feel like I should be either really happy or really sad, and I am about certain things but its like they cancel each other out and I just feel… meh.
I have two friends who really annoy me and they don’t seem to notice. The first one is a total mooch who has taken a bunch of my money, both in cash and in constantly taking things like food and cigarettes with no intention of paying me back. And its not just my stuff, its my time. Whenever she wants to hang out, she guilts me into staying with her until she has something better to do, even though we don’t have that much in common and half the time we have nothing to talk about, she just wants me there so she won’t be alone. All this because if I say no to her she manipulates me into feeling like I’m the worst person in the planet.
The other person annoys the hell out of me, and for some reason she’s never been able to pick up on this fact and keeps trying to spend time with me. I could type for an hour going over all the ways she annoys me but the fact is we’re going to college on opposite sides of the country and I just want the relationship to die quietly but I don’t know if she’ll get it if I stop returning her calls.
My throat hurts because some glands or something right under my chin hurt but I can’t tell if it’ll go away on its own or if I should go to the doctor, not to mention I can be a huge hypochontriac about these kinds of things and now I’m worried my tonsils are going to explode or something. It doesn’t help that my mom is away and I’m alone in the house and I don’t want to ask anyone to take me to the doctor for various reasons.
There’s a ton of other little stuff, and the worst part is that I’m so overcome with intertia I don’t feel like doing anything about it.
