This happens all the time, I’ll just be caught staring at nothing and just sigh, I’ll cry over nothing at all, and I’ll draw morbid pics of stuff. More than once, I’ve felt like taking a whole bunch of pills and just die. What the hell is the matter with me?
Could very well be clinical depression. It’s very treatable with medications, but you’ll definitely want to go see a doctor about it. Again, whatever it is, do go see a doctor ASAP. Seriously.
Sounds like depression to me too. Really, you should talk to a professional about this if it’s happening “all the time”.
I’ll reiterate what’s been said. If the feelings you describe are persistent (and looking at your location makes me believe that’s the case), then you need to see a doctor or a psychologist.
Depression is treatable, but you have to initiate the process. Do you have or know of a doctor you can call tomorrow morning?
Call a doctor first thing in the morning. If you don’t have a doctor, call the local health dept. If you feel like hurting yourself tonight, go straight to the nearest emergency room. My oldest daughter has clinical depression, and has been medicated for about six months now. She’s doing much better. At her lowest, she attempted suicide, and had self-mutilated. There is help. Please get it. We’d like to have you around the boards a little longer!
Thanks everyone… Maybe I’ll see someone.The first picture, one of many I’ve done (may be disturbing)
Clinical depression is nothing to be ashamed of, any more than having brown eyes or being short. It’s a neurochemical imbalance that leads to feelings of despair, hopelessness, fatigue, and a general lack of emotion and interest in the world. It isn’t something you can get over, just like you can’t get over a broken leg without a little help from a physician.
Physicians can help. Medications can help. Counselling can help. But you have to take the first step.
I’m gonna push a little bit. Topaz, who are you going to call this morning?
Nice artwork. Go see a doctor.
That’s a bit of an overgeneralisation, Derleth. There are at least three different disorders with a presentation of depression. In some of them neurochemistry seems to be primary, though (as I can testify from personal experience) appropriate psychological therapy (eg. cognitive-behavioural therapy) is an extremely helpful component of long-term management. But in one common disorder with a presentation of depression, psychological factors seem to be primary and neurochemical ones secondary. Treatment with antidepressants in this case provides palliation, which can be important in the short term, but cognitive-behaviour therapy (and perhaps other psychotherapies, but not psychoanalysis) is much more effective in the long term, cheaper, and free of side effects.
Topaz needs an expert differential diagnosis and immediate care. He or she ought to go and see a doctor or call a counselling hotline without delay.
It was not shame that I should be diagnosed with a mental disorder that kept me away from doctors during my first few bouts of depression. It was the intense anxiety, overwhelming lethargy and tiredness, and almost paralytic failure of volition. So Topaz, I don’t care how bad you feel. Go to a doctor!
Regards,
Agback
Get help now, my friend. Reach out and get some help. Folks who have chosen the health career as a profession can usually be trusted in such matters as long as you don’t know that person personally.
Historically, untreated extreme depression has sometimes lead to some bad choices.
The above may not apply exactly to your present situation.
Just a nickel’s worth of free advice.
Topaz, I know it is deja vu all over again, but what you are describing is classic depression. We don’t know the cause, and really only a doctor can figure out exactly what the best treatment will be. It is treatable however. Please see a physician and see one soon.