Mine was Honey Bear. I had surgury on my ear drums when I was four, and I didn’t have a bear so I borrowed my brother’s. My aunt felt bad and gave me Honey (who was, inexplicably, a boy), who was sort of light tan and wore a red sweater with a hoodie. He had a brown leather nose and always looked sort of sad, like me. He also had a tag on his butt that had hands clapping and said, “Applause,” which I thought was too cool. His legs were not very stuffed, so he was always in “sitting” position.
The sweater disappeared around 1990, but Honey stayed. he turned gray, and his butt tag ripped apart, and his nose rubbed away to reveal black plastic, but I still loved him. Slept with him whenever I was sad. Sometimes he would hide under the bed for a few days, but he always resurfaced just in time to give me a shoulder to cry on.
I use past tense because last spring break, on a bus back to school, I left him. Yup, I left him tucked in with my favorite pillow and my favorite pillow case. See, I got on the wrong bus and had to leave in a rush, thus abandoning Honey Bear and the pillow in the upper storage part.
I remembered the bus number and called frantically, I harrassed them for weeks, to no avail. The only thing that helps when I think about him is that maybe some kid got a bear he always wanted.
If I think about him in a trash bin somewhere, I cry. So let’s not think about that. 
I have two pictures of him from right before he bowed out. One is of my bed with him on it, another is from when my boyfriend and I broke up and my best friend walked in to find me crying in bed, under the covers, with Honey, listening to Nat King Cole tell me to “Smile” on repeat.
This has been a long and depressing post and I apologize. I miss Honey a whole lot, obviously.
