If I can be truly said to be arrogant about one thing, it’s writing fiction. I know I am a great writer–that is why I am always tearing my shit apart. I know I was born with more writing talent in my little pinky than many writers manage to accumulate in their entire lifetime. I have impossibly high standards for my writing because of how good I have the potential to be–and sadly, this is probably one reason why I don’t write that often any more–nothing’s ever good enough.
I’ve talked to a lot of people who consider themselves writers, but I’ve only met a couple who I think are as authentically passionate about writing as myself. I can be unbearably snobby about the quality of writing in a novel–if a writer sucks, but I find certain plot elements exciting, I’ll just skip to those parts. Shit man, when I was in Mexico I read a book in Spanish that I thought was terribly written (okay it was ‘‘Message in a Bottle.’’ I had no familiarity at all with the plot, but after 30 pages I was like, ‘‘I might as well skip to the part where he finds out she’s a journalist and their abiding love is threatened by her deceit.’’ Sure enough… and even THAT wasn’t worth reading.)
Look, I’ve seen the total shit that gets published, I know I have the stuff to at least make it into print. Problem is, my writing is extremely sporadic now that I’m an adult and have to do things like work and maintain relationships with my peers. Most people who met me late in life have no idea about the hidden writer side of me. They freak out because when it hits, suddenly all I am thinking about/doing/talking about is writing. Doing the dishes, writing in my head. Driving, writing in my head. Working, thinking, ‘‘Wow, I can’t wait to go home to write.’’
Much as I love Spanish and studying Latin America and all that touchy-feely bullshit, nothing in the whole fucking world compares to how I feel when I am on a writing spree. When I’m into it, nothing exists but me and my work.
That is my snobbery.
The thing I know the most about, that people would run to me if they had any questions for, is Friedrich Nietzsche. I’ve had 2.5 classes on Nietzsche and read almost every single work he created. My life has been seriously impacted by his writings and I relate to him on a personal level, too, so I know not only a lot about Nietzsche the philosopher, but I also have pretty good insight into Nietzsche as a person, his private life and how his relationships with others impacted him. I’m just the go-to girl for Nietzsche.