Because I have no idea what to call what just happened to me.
I’ve had sleep paralysis before, and usually accompanied by bad nightmares and ‘‘waking up’’ 20 times before I realize I finally woke up for real. I’ve also woken up, only be to immediately sucked back into the nightmare–that is the worst, because I’m conscious of literally being unable to wake up, of having no control over whether my body sleeps or not. It’s been a while, though.
I woke up today to go to an early appointment, came back, felt tired, and decided to go back to bed. What resulted was a long, drawn-out, miserable sleep paralysis experience. After about forever of going through this dream-sequence thing on a giant ship, I finally realized I was asleep. Then I was in my bed on the giant ship, trying to wake up. I must have had 10 false wake-ups. And the more I woke up, the more I felt someone was in the apartment, and the more freaked out I became about being unable to move.
Finally–finally–I woke up. As soon as my body would work, I confirmed that nobody was in the apartment and then I stumbled to the bathroom.
But this is the weird thing. For the longest time, I wasn’t sure if I was awake or not. My limbs were going numb and I felt that, even though I had just got up and walked around, I was being sucked back into sleep! My eyes kept rolling back in my head like I was going to pass out or something. As though I could be walking into the living room and instantly fall asleep and collapse to the carpet. I’ve had plenty of times, in dreams, where I’ve questioned the reality of a dream, but I have never been awake and questioned reality!
So I spent the next twenty minutes oscillating between the possibility that I was still asleep and the possibility that I was in danger of collapsing into paralyzed sleep at any moment. My hands were too weak and numb to do much, for a while there seemed to be getting number. I just sat there trying to fight being sucked back into sleep. Then I got a soda and some pretzels to try to convince my body I’m awake. I think it worked.
It has been 25 minutes since this occurred, and it doesn’t appear I’m going to fall asleep involuntarily. The feelings are less strong, and I am 95% certain that this is reality and not a dream.
I’m still exhausted… but scared to go back to sleep! :eek:
I’m sorry if this post is less than articulate. I feel like parts of my brain are still asleep.
Has anybody had this happen to them before? WTF?