For myself, I’d do it in a heartbeat. I was a misfit child to begin with, I started kindergarten early, then skipped another grade, so I was always chronologically younger than all of my peers while still being more suited to conversation, in terms of interest and understanding, with adults. And this time around I’d have the knowledge and understanding to get the grades that went along with the prodigy status.
And getting to relive and reclaim the years with my dad – especially now with my knowledge of his other, secret family – and maybe fix that, and to have the years with my mom and grandparents again, too. That’d be great.
Knowing what relationships were worth seeking out again, and cultivating, and which were a waste of time? Priceless. Yes, bring it on.
My only hesitation is over this: what would happen to the events that I set in motion in this lifetime, and events in which my role made a meaningful difference? What about things I could subvert? It’s one thing for my memories and knowledge to be intact, but with them, I’d make different choices.
Could Tumbleddown Rebooted change the course of her everything by pushing her dad to the go the ER on the morning of May 10, 1984 version 2.0, throwing a complete brat fit, refusing to go to school, calling 911 herself if need be, so that he didn’t die on the kitchen floor that night from what may have been a preventable embolism? How does it effect ~50 year old Tumbleddown Rebooted (in the body of an 11 year old) if she does all that and her dad dies anyway?
Does the friend I probably wouldn’t have in v2.0 die because someone without my sense of direction is on the phone with the rural ambulance service, explaining how to get to where he was having an intractable asthma attack?
I wouldn’t attend the college I went to if I got a chance to relive my life. But I introduced two couples that got married and are still together with 7 kids between them. Would they all have their lives?
That’s a lot of responsibility to put on my shoulders, you know?