To make a long story short, I thought my husband and a neighbor were making fun of me. They were actually good-naturedly teasing me, but I took it the wrong way and started crying! Then I realized they were just teasing me and was so embarrassed.
The next day I realized what had happened: 7th grade jumped me.
I was an incredibly geeky kid in 7th grade. With a shag haircut, no sense of style and the fact that I looked like a boy, I was the object of a TON of teasing. Even after exiting my awkward stage, it ws quite a while before I could tell the difference between good-natured teasing and making fun.
Man, was that weird. My husband was so sweet… He reassured me that he would NEVER make fun of me, never take someone else’s side against me… Just who the heck did I think I had married?
Wow, I’m 33 years old… That means I regressed 20 years!
High school. Dammit. I’m just graduated two months ago, and it took until my senior year to fully get through being awkward and basicly being a loser. But sometimes, one wrong word, and I start having to fight off the insecurities again. Some things just strike a chord.
I was the one person in my middle school who EVERYBODY picked on. I’m so glad I’m hundreds of miles away from that place. Seventh grade was the worst, but sixth and eighth weren’t really much better.
Did anybody else’s parents and/or faculty tell them, “Just ignore it and they’ll stop?” Talk about bullshit!
Nope, I’m not glad I went through them. I truly believe that if 7th grade hadn’t been a one-year visit to hell, that today I would be rich, drop-dead gorgeous, and living on a tropical island with the likes of Jake Gyllenhaal. If only I had been popular and well respected in middle school, I could own my own Fortune 500 company at the staggering age of 22. Instead, I am a neurotic, poor, struggling student. Darn you, 7th grade! Darn you straight to heck!!
Canthearya, do you think he/she was 12 stepping or something?
Ugh, middle school was the worst! Luckily, I’m still good friends with my two best friends from that time and now, 20 years later, we can look back and laugh. I never thought that would be possible at the time.
Hey trishdish. Yeah, she could have been twelve stepping, I suppose. On the other hand, she didn’t use any of the jargon and I’m pretty sensitive to that, as my mother is an 11-year sober recovering alcoholic. Who knows?
During the tough times, I was fortunate to have a best friend and my family was great. I knew they loved me and I’m sure those two factors were the only things keeping me together… I hadn’t discovered alcohol yet.