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Well, I was supposed to be a Writer. But I did not get along well with my mother as a child/teen and on some quixotic impulse, I decided to go to nursing school (she was a nurse). My dad offered to send me to med school, but I was sure I was not smart enough for that. I stayed in nursing because I was not a quitter (not being a quitter is more problematic than one hears about). I had had to prove I was not a quitter because as a kid, I quit piano, ballet, tap, and swimming as soon as I could (I swam for 6 years competitively and really didn’t like it. All of us swam–we had to. Mom said.)
So, here I am, 20+ years of being a nurse. I’m good at it, too and not really liking it all that much. It’s ok and I like to help people, but it’s not a calling for me. It’s a way to make money. I do it well because I was taught to do things well, no matter what they are.
So, I went to library school and found it easy (most of it). Looking back, I think I could have gone to med school and done well. Am I glad I’m not a doctor? Well, yes–they truly can’t call their time their own. The money would be nice, though.
Re this library thing: with our finances being what they are now (and for the foreseeable future), public librarianship is not a viable option; the cut in pay is too great. I knew that going in–I just wanted to shake up my world and life. I did. Now I KNOW I have options (which, no matter how many people told me before, I didn’t believe) and I am on the lookout to make the most of them. But I will never again take a job just to have a job–it will either be a stepping stone to something else or the job I want. I would love, love, love to be a reader’s advisory for a largish suburban library, but that’s not happening right now.
Still, I miss writing. I think like a writer. I am happiest typing on this keyboard. I have half a murder mystery written. My problem is not writing (although I have no idea if I’m any good or not), it’s discipline. Every day (almost) I wake up and say, ok, you’re off today, so take a look at your mystery. And (almost) every day, I piss away time here or baking or cleaning etc.
I am trying to establish a routine where I run 3x/week and the days I run, I also devote one hour to writing. This may sound like an excuse, but my life has seriously suffered from a lack of routine. Used to be my work days changed every week, so there was no predictability. Then I had kids–coupled with random days of work, it was hard, if not impossible, to have much stability. Now that my kids are older, I hope to have that again.
This got longer than it should have. Sorry to bore you all! Great OP, Rosie–a good time to reflect back and appreciate where you are now.