I was raised 50 feet from our Parish church, 25 feet from our “Rectory”(Priests residence); I was an “Alter Boy”, went to Catholic Grammar and High Schools, experienced Jesuit teaching as well as the Christian Brother sect. I had daily exposure in/out of school to Nuns, Brothers, and Priests.
I grew up in a Catholic “neighborhood” in Philadelphia. When I grew up, I thought you were either Catholic or “Public”! I didn’t know anything else until I was in High School!
I recently found a paper I filled out in 6th grade. It was a fill-in-the-blank questionaire. One question reads: “This Parish is__________”
My response was “…not ready for big problems”.
That was the start. After that, I went on to become a person who questioned everything, and some of the things that hold up very poorly to questions are religion and god.
Being an atheist is one thing. Going through a Catholic high school as an open atheist is something on another level.
Hitting and beating teenagers in my high school was common and EXPECTED. I was booted out of “Religion” class numerous times, sometimes LITERALLY, so being an atheist was a test of faith (??? Can that be?).
Why go to a Catholic School? Was still a god education, and a beating is better than a stabbing that my parents feared in Public Schools.
I have an utter bitterness for the aggravation that Catholicism has caused me. Somethings are so inate in people from their upbringing that it’s disgusting. My wife cannot enjoy anything, especially a day off, because anything fun or interesting (especially independent thought) automatically triggers guilty feelings. That, my friends, is the price she pays for her Catholic upbringing.
It’s sad, because having my own ideas, and questioning things comes so naturally to me, yet others can’t think independently. They have “learned” not just the “facts” of their religion, but the “mood” of it as well. “Faith” does not encourage thinking and reasoning; two very human features. “Faith is a human killer”. That could be a atheist sig line.
Jesus was solemn and sad. That’s the tone that has been set. Not experiencing the full benefits of reasoning, thinking and emotions is very un-human, if you will.
I am an atheist, and the catalyst was the stupidity of the Catholic church. Once I learned to question the religion, questioning god was the next natural step.
Faith IS a human killer…figuratively and literally.