I’m not sure if this goes in great debates or not, but I am looking for some kind of specific information, a cite from the Bible or other book or person of religious significance.
I was brought up as a Roman Catholic but I now consider myself to be agnostic. Right now, I would have to say I’m leaning more towards the “God doesn’t exist” side. As I understand it, in the Chrisitan religion, if one believes in God and believes that Jesus is the son of God, along with not committing any mortal sins, then he can be pretty sure of salvation. At least, that is what I was taught as a child. On the other hand, the only thing that will guarantee eternal damnation is refusing to believe that Jesus Christ is the son of God.
Here’s the thing. I want to believe in God. I mean, who wouldn’t like to believe that when they die they can be guaranteed eternal paradise? It’s a whole lot better than nothingness. However, there is a key difference between me wanting to believe in God and actually believing in God. I don’t think that I will ever be able to truly say that I believe in God. It’s just the way that my mind works. I’ve been taught to question everything, and not to accept things without some kind of evidence. I mean, I can say that I believe in God, but I’ll know deep down inside that I don’t really, and He will know too.
So, my question is, does the fact that I was born with a logical mindset that refuses to accept things without evidence condemn me to eternal damnation? Is there some kind of clause in the Bible that covers this sort of thing, where somebody really and truly would like to believe but physically (or mentally or spiritually or however you want to look at it) can’t? Right now, I don’t think anything could convince me of a God short of Him revealing himself to me in some way. Should I be condemned to hell over something I can’t control?